(PLEASE READ ALL OF THIS)What I mean is that I'm gonna be quitting scratch now, I literally have no idea of what the hell to do on it at all these days, I just simply stopped enjoying it, and I have to focus on real life, and the constant OC art requests were cramming up on me..like, dude, I can't draw an OC that transforms milliseconds into another one lmao I'm no perfectionist so stop lol (Calling out some certain people, you probably know). I've also gotten frustrated with myself over the past few months, my self-esteem has been getting lower lately. And the more I realize that with my mood so far, I'm not gonna do anything, I've just stopped enjoying what I liked doing and everybody on this platform was getting me mad and annoyed for reasons as said. I also have to focus on IRL stuff, like exams, etc... And I feel like I'm entering a ''mini-blue'' phase, where there's times where I feel happy and sometimes where I feel down for no reason. Which I will say again that there are ''certain ones'' that get me frustrated on this platform too lol, I also think that there is no other purpose for me to be on this platform as well, so what's the point? Freakin' hate this platform tbh. I'll only come back on occasionally to chat for limited amounts of time, so don't go saying ''Omg he's back!!1111!!'' bc low-key, shiz not funny.
I fell off hard, man. From Godzilla projects to ELO projects. One thing that I find absurd and upsetting about this is that whenever I post a project that's not Goji related, people won't appreciate it (Literally), so in the end, people don't CARE about my other likes... they just want Godzilla and their crappy OCs done. I'm not doing it anymore man, I can't take it. But whatever, that's the way some people are unfortunately. Making projects are also a burnout, and I'm feeling boxed up and isolated from other interests that I like, but as if my mind were possessing me to stay inside that ''Godzilla Box'' and make my viewers like moths that are in love with a bright light. (If you know what I mean) I'm not gonna bother giving that many shoutouts, just comment or whatever I don't care. Fine, here's a more proper goodbye (And no, I didn't write this with Chat GPT, so shut up) As a 14-year-old guy who loves art and creativity, I’ve gone through some big changes in my interests. I started out making stuff about kaiju, especially Godzilla, on platforms like Scratch. I was all about bringing those giant monsters to life and seeing how people reacted to my work. But lately, I’ve hit a tough spot, and I’ve decided to step back from creating—and I mean literally forever. So, when I got into the Electric Light Orchestra (ELO), my focus started shifting. Their music is just so good(Love Jeff Lynne too, my fav track is Livin' Thing), with that killer mix of rock and orchestral vibes. But every time I tried to mash up ELO with my kaiju art, it just didn’t vibe. Instead of feeling inspired, I felt stuck and frustrated. Part of what made me frustrated were the art requests. I had this friend who’s super creative with his own kaiju OCs, and he kept hitting me up to draw them. Like, he’d be like, “My OC can transform into other beings in milliseconds! Can you redraw that?” and so much more that has pressured on me, along with drawing much complicated oc's that have never seen the light of day. It felt like I was being pulled in all directions, and keeping up with those expectations was exhausting. What should’ve been fun turned into a chore, and that really killed my love for creating. Realizing I was losing my passion was a wake-up call. I figured out that creativity should be fun, not stressful. So, I decided to take a break from making art and posting online. Honestly, it was a tough call, but it felt necessary. Sometimes, stepping back helps you see things more clearly and figure out what really inspires you. By taking a break, I can check out my new interests without all the pressure. I want to dive deeper into ELO’s music or just find a new way to enjoy kaiju. I really want to reconnect with what I love about art in a chill way. And my other loves for music too, I've also craved a career in the music industry for so long, not only art. I've gotten comments from some people forcing me to do art instead of some other stuff. In the end, deciding to quit creating art for now—and probably forever—is all about understanding myself better. Creativity is a journey, and sometimes the best move is to take a step back, breathe, and see where my interests lead me next. With that proper essay out of the way: Anyway bye I guess. Credits: - Wishing- Electric Light Orchestra
