Better apology soon but need to keep my bearings first… *PRESS SPACE TO CONTINUE* I’m gonna be answering questions in comments, so give me those Q’s! STUFF I DIDN’T MENTION BUT WANT TO: 1. Scratch has given a deep mental toll, on me, and I kinda feel an absolute burn out. And that’s the reason why I don’t work on any of my projects anymore. But I just can’t bring myself to leave Scratch, it’s kinda a big part of my life, and I just don't know what to do next. Seems stupid, but I’ve been using it ever since I was 7, and to me it’s like losing a big part of my childhood. 2. School, also plays a major role in my mental health problems. Last year I got straight A’s the whole year, and everyone is pressuring me to keep going, it’s not really me parents doing it. It’s my relatives, teachers, friends, cousins, and other people who seemed really impressed. Balancing this and Scratch, and having fun hanging out with my friends (Either outside, or in Video Games), isn’t hard. It’s just the AMOUNT of stress i’ve had lately, it just hurts. 2.5. Also had a lot of problems in school recently, I got into a school fight. And in 5th Grade started getting bullied, because i’m Asian. It’s stupid but I guess that’s how my school goes. Florida is filled with *Racist comment* white people who only *mean comment* themselves and bullying anyone who isn’t white. Honestly the racism in my school has given me the worst mental health in my life. It’s not depression level, I never needed therapy, and the bullying has stopped, but because of it every once in a while I want to jump of a bridge or *Lets just say impale* myself sometimes, and sometimes when my parents are out, I go to the kitchen and grab a- (This is getting to serious, I don’t want ST, to kill me, or some Police or random guidance counselor to knock on my door because of this.) 3. I want to diversify, my hobbies. Game development is a huge one, and I want to diversify that too. Although I did say I don’t want to quit it, but I’m tired of Scratch. (I wont quit.) I want to learn other languages like, GDScript, C#, Java, HTML, and others. I also want to make music, I have a “beautiful voice” what my parents, and friends say. But that’s later, recently i’ve been writing down raps, and honestly I like doing it. And my one and only rap a Diss Track, honestly did well for me. 4. I don’t want to be a game dev when I grow up, I want a life working for NASA. As an engineer at JPL (Jet Propulsion Labratory) I want to do robotics when I grow up, had our first robotics competition of the season last Saturday, and ALMOST made it to finals. Huge step to making it to the world championship. And hopefully a huge step to my future. THATS, ALL. HOPE YOU ENJOYED THIS APOLOGY, HOPE YOU CAN FORGIVE ME, AND HONESTLY GOOD LUCK. (I was emotional while writing this, idk why but for me it goes to show, how much my mental health deterioted since August.)
(Will add audio later) To Non-Christians: *It does contain some Christian remarks in it, just so you know* @UnitPad - Click sound EMBRR - “Mice on Venus but extra nostalgic”
