begoniapaw didn't understand. she tried to be a good cat, a good sister, a good daughter, a good friend. vibrantear, springdaze. they were dead with her. hadn't found strawflowerkit yet only thing left was the eternals, her loves, her friends. one thing ate at her. justice. revenge. the gut instinct. she'd lost the first battle with Snapdragonpaw, but if she faced them again, she'd be the one with bl--d on her paws. and it wouldnt be hers. she couldn't think like this. this was against everything she believed in. against the eels, and the eternals. against starclan perhaps though, she'd bend her moral rules perhaps she'd fight snapdragonpaw. and maybe, just maybe, she would be at peace again. she tried to put on a happy face around her friends another matter to speak about was Tidalpaw-spark. He made her feel so,,, safe. a rare sense of comfort and happiness. and her eternals made her feel like she belonged. for once, she was in charge. she remembered envying the spirits in life she remembered all of her life meeting spring being taken to flurry meeting her littermates moving to urchinclan getting into urchinclan making friends becoming an apprentice almost becoming a ranger being killed. she hoped that snapdragonpaw was being brought to justice and that she would live on. she hated these thoughts she wanted to be innocent again innocence dead old begonia no more but there was some left of her maybe one day she'd bring justice maybe one day she'd end her suffering
haha let bee fight snappy please please [srp- self roleplay] generations rp! Why 37 @generations-
