‘ hush now, go live a better life ’ Koelstar’s death rp

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‘ Cause I’m still holding on ’ It was… funny. How much Koel had been through. How many cats he had hurt. And yet… he was the one who got hurt in the end. Irony. He could taste the word on his tongue. That’s what they called it didn’t they? Or something like that. Moon old wounds, that hadn’t closed up yet. No matter how hard their medics had tried. It seemed like he could always see them bleeding. From all sorts of different things. From different cats. Some call it irony, some call it payback. For all of the things he had done. How much he had hurt Wishlily, Dreamfall. The pain he had caused Ahingafeather and Mintbreeze. And it came back to slap him in the face. All of the cats that he had lost. Maybe it was some sort of a curse. Maybe he just couldn’t keep a full heart. Dappledeer. His closest friend when he was alive. It tore Koel apart when he died. His deputy, and his brother-in-law. Soaringswallow. His daughter who he will forever remember. Xe didn’t deserve the death they had. Crowpaw. Gone at such a young age, and he barely had time to mourn her. Jerboablaze. How many hearts did he Koel need to say that Jerboa’s death ripped each and every one of them out. His brother figure, his mentor, gone. Robinsoar. His father-in-law. The one he was slightly scared of at times. But in the end, he learned to love him. Cherrysong. His mother-in-law, his mentor, his idol. She was everything that Koel couldn’t be. Her death broke Koel more then anyone realized. Pepperedpebble. He could still remember the story that Koel told him while he was on his deathbed. Koel would never forget him, and his rocks. Crowcrystal. His beloved. His true and only love. Gone so soon from his life. Left to the stars by hunger. She didn’t deserve it. If only she were next to him still… Kiwisplash. Everyone says that he was evil. But he was a brother to Koel. Someone who played the floor is lava when they were apprentices. Lotus. One of his deepest regrets. She died with anger at Koel. Something that never should’ve happened. Ahingafeather. His dear brother. The guilt that pounds on his back whenever his name is brought up. Anga didn’t deserve it. All of the things that happened. Angs didn’t deserve it… Fritillaryear. Killed. Murdered. There’s never a good way to say it. Another death… Morningsong. Most likely one of the strongest fighters in the clan. Dead to a predator. A deputy choice, Koel’s apprentice. She will be missed. Rosestar. His some sort of mentor, not an idol. Never an idol. It stopped being an idol when she killed Pepperedpebble. Songbirdkit. A tiny bundle of joy full of endless possibilities. She was too young. Too young… Lullabywhisper. His last daughter of the litter, but not the last one. The memories. How much she reminded him of Crowcrystal… Wakingdawn. He thought he liked her. But she’s gone, and they’ll meet again in Starclan. And then there was the people he was leaving behind. Carinationstar, Daydreamerkit, Legendkit, Flightlesskit, Sorrowkit, Stolenkit, Treasurekit, all of his other kin. But he’d wait for them. As long as it took. Because he’d wait for eternity. His heart was that big. But for now… hush now, go life a better life ‘ To everything that’s dead and gone ’