it feels like locking yourself in a room aand tthrowing the kkey away i im scared of myself ddont interwct with mme AAT ALL unless you want everything ruined and to feel guilt tripped and mmanipulated and fforced kkill me i ccried myself tto sleep yesterdaay it wasnt fun i hated ir mmy only ffreijds are the pplushies in mmy bed i really cant do it imagine when mmy parents walk into the room and tthey just see me asleep and i never wake up again i donr want to think about it wwhat if they llovs ms aans how lylu jjumps up at me ffor pets when i gget home ffrom schol aand how deleilah always wwants to play wwith me aand how mmy 'freinds ' mmissed me so much when i was away ffor 3 days no stop fhinking about it iim cryijg right now iimm not just ovverexxadurateing so people wwill actually ccare bbecause i try nnot to bbut mom ggot angry or what she calls dissapointed aand sad at me whenn i told the teacher hhow i really felt ' ii really want to d!3' ' oh saturn, jjust say you feel really sad next ttime. i never would even wqnt my worst enemy to d!3. please dont think like that, saturn. i love you ' ookay mom ii love yyou ii hope yo7 love me back mom i hope yyou love me back, lulu and deleilah aand dad aand- STOP SROP THINKING ABOUT IT YOUR CRYING,,, MMOM WONT LIKE TTHAT WHEN SHE GETZ HOME NO SHE- CANT BBEAR TO SEE HER CRY STOP STOP SSTOP STOP STOP STOP THINKING WWHAT ELSE CAN I THINK ABOUT ATOP STOP SROP SROP STOP AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHH. STOOOOPP !!!!!!!
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