ₐₙₐₗyzᵢₙg "bᵣᵤₜₐₗ" ᵢₙ bₑgₒₙᵢₐₚₐw'ₛ ₗᵢfₑ

Instructions

[ pretty music at the start ] - her life being found by spring, happy, upbeat, chill, good life then [ I want it to be like, messy ] after she realizes she doesn't fit in in flurryclan [upbeat music ] running to urchin [ I'm so insecure, I think ] she's stressing out in urchinclan, friendless and lonely [ That I'll die before I drink ] same as above hands hurt brb [ And I'm so caught up in the news Of who likes me, and who hates you ] she wants to know who likes her and who doesn't like vibrantpaw[mentioned!!!!1] and doesn't want vibrant to die like very does not want her to get killed since of all the murders in urchin [ And I'm so tired that I might Quit my job, start a new life ] shes thinking about moving clans again or becoming a kittypet after finding out about urchinclan's dark forest thing [ And they'd all be so disappointed 'Cause, who am I, if not exploited? ] shes pissed. she doesn't want to be evil but she likes her people in urchinclan [ And I'm so sick of 17 Where's my [redacted] teenage dream? ] going onto the border to consider leaving, angry because shes heard that when you're a ranger that's when life isn't good anymore but as an apprentice she didn't enjoy life [ If someone tells me one more time "Enjoy your youth, " I'm gonna cry ] she just wants to grow up and chose whatever she wants [ And I don't stick up for myself I'm anxious and nothing can help ] pretty much stressed still, no comment really- [ And I wish I'd done this before And I wish people liked me more ] wishing that she ran away before she was older [All I did was try my best This the kind of thanks I get? ] getting killed [ Unrelentlessly upset (ah, ah, ah) ] always wishing that she didn't die and didn't fight snapdragonpaw[mentioned!!!1] [ They say these are the golden years But I wish I could disappear ] she's stuck in her supposed "golden years" [ Ego crush is so severe God, it's brutal out here ] Starclan is super full of sad cats and shes one [ I feel like no one wants me And I hate the way I'm perceived ] angry because of feeling like shes being ignored and not making too many friends in starclan [ I only have two real friends ] vibrantear and tidalpaw [ And lately, I'm a nervous wreck ] yay panic attacks yay she wants to kill Snapdragonpaw ;-; srp- in notes and creds [ 'Cause I love people I don't like And I hate every song I write ] shes stressed out because she loves her clan but doesn't like it [ And I'm not cool and I'm not smart And I can't even parallel park ] basucally shes like not old enough to consider herself old, she doesn't think shes cool and anything and she feels stupid [ All I did was try my best This the kind of thanks I get? ] again as what it was in the last one [ Unrelentlessly upset (ah, ah, ah) ] same as last [ They say these are the golden years ] same as last [But I wish I could disappear Ego crush is so severe God, it's brutal out here ] all the same as previouses [ Got a broken ego, broken heart (it's brutal out here, it's brutal out here) ] broken ego lost a fight broken heart misses life [ And God, I don't even know where to start ] doesn't know what to do to get back to health