i dont think anyone will really see this but yeah, i feel a bit bad disappearing without a word. so heres the update thats been months overdue not really sure what happened myself. one day i just slowly started checking this place less and less. and then i began forgetting about scratch in general for a day at a time, but i still held a lot of fondness for this site. so i stayed. at least, tried to. might have something to do with my mental health, loss of motivation or interest in things is a common sign. like yeah i feel fine and i have soooo many special interests to keep myself occupied, but i just DONT have a love for scratch anymore. i dont know why but i dont. and i feel bad because i still really really like being here. i have so many memories and i'd hate to officially leave this place. but every time i think about going back, i just feel guilty- like ive been avoiding all my responsibilities, and i know all the old art payments are never going to get done, and all my beloved roleplay characters have been stagnant for like a year. too much time has passed for me to redeem myself. not sure what to do. i hesitate to come out and say "im leaving". because that's not what i want to do. i want to stay but i dont know how to. im 15 now. ive been here since i was like, 9. since 2019. it's been that long- i still cant believe it either. maybe it's scratch itself. maybe im too "old" for this now (i really hope not) i might make a new account or something for a fresh start. maybe that will reactivate my love for this site. i dont know i really dont. on a different note, i got officially diagnosed with audhd and anxiety so theres that imao
since i think i owe it to yall theres a few of my most recent art pieces so you can see how much my style has changed in the past few months
