Im sorry but I feel so stupid for doing this. I just have nobody, I'm so alone . I don't trust anyone anymore, people are leaving me, nobody listens when I talk and all I'm thinking is why am I still here? nobody cares. and no Im not being a spoiled girl not getting her way. I'm genuinely contemplating it, I'm so tired of never being happy or when I have a problem I have to keep it in bcs I have nobody to help me. I hate my household, my stepfather is constantly putting me down and shaming me or yelling at me for things that aren't my fault, he praises his sons (my half brothers) while I'm constantly getting $**+ on, I'm just so tired. I will never be enough for anyone, I wasn't a good gf so they left. months later I tried talking to a girl I wanted to talk to since the start of my freshman year (mid sophomore now) and I finally did it, I texted her and told her I liked her hair since she dyes it alot, and she was sooo sweet and then we started talking. then we ended up just being friends bcs she "didn't see me that way" but the night before she told me that we were hanging out and being flirty and was laying her head on my shoulder bcs she was tired ( Halloween thing in town(I live in winder ga, small town)) like I just don't understand how someone could switch up SO fast , within mere hours. and I feel and look so incredibly stupid. I was happy. I wasn't in a dark spot. I was so excited and grateful for life. now I'm back into the dark spot I was in before I met her. I'm so so so ready to give up. I just don't feel worthy anymore and nobody cares.
its long I'm sorry.
