At this point I pretty sure shattered likes seeing me hurt. First he guilt tripped me many times by threatening to commit when I cared. Second he faked his death when I sorta cared and felt like it was my fault. Third he tried to get my friend to commit because I didn't wanna be his friend anymore. And fourth, he wants my gf to break up with me cuz of me being very mean to him, I'm only mean to him cuz of how he is. I hate this but my addictions are keeping me here. I don't want to be here suffering anymore.
