☆ semi hiatus

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I literally can’t resist to go on scratch sometimes because it’s the only thing I can do :’) oh and i have amazing friends on here my mental health has gotten worse and im not sure how long i can hold it for. i GOT better, but it wasnt enough and its going downhill once again. i accidentally hurt a friend while trying to make her feel better, but i worded it incorrectly, and now i feel horrible. i tried contacting her, but i feel like its useless. i wish that i was a better person, and i already messed up too much in life. like i said, my mental health is already horrible, and so is my anger issues. i lowk feel useless and im the problem. im gonna take a hiatus. not sure how long, but maybe until i feel better. might be a LONG time tho. obv she understood (is it obvious?) and she forgave me, but i still feel guilty for that :( heh my mental health has gotten increasingly worse :’) im taking a break from scratch. if I owe u something or told u i was making u a gift, ill only come back for that until i feel better but they might take longer. if i owe u something, i might have to cancel it or something, but it might take a LONG LONG time for me to finish. a few more things about my mental health, i break down a lot now. more often. im scared to ask anyone anyways and i just want to seek help. without asking. obv i havent recieved any and i tried to give hints. i dont think that worked. more info from 11/18 (i think): so ive been struggling with my intrusive thoughts and me always comparing me with others and it gets me so mad. ive always wanted to tell someone but i was too afraid to ask AGAGHHHh. i jest relied on them coming up to me, but no one did and again, i don’t wanna ask, and plus, sometimes they don’t understand :’). i also have anger issues, but towards everyone, like me. i can’t help but to feel this way, and i don’t know how to control it. every time i get mad at just ONE person, I get mad at almost everyone, and that ends up with me hurting others and me having a mental breakdown at the end. school is also kinda hard mainly because i can’t concentrate, which leads to me procrastinating until the last day. it also creates stress, but this is less important than the others. uhm i hope u guys understand :’) tysm for reading this btw my texts might be more plain unless ur an irl or a really good mutual