i never thought i would be here typing this. ilyis. im so sorry. but i've made the extremely difficult decision that im going to be leaving scratch. teardrops are falling on my keyboard as im typing this, but here i am. i dont know the exact date just yet, but i know that it will definitely occur 23rd january 2025 - aka my birthday!! school is getting to a stage where i need to pull my head in and focus. im already failing math so bad (read my vent for more info) and next year will be the year where everything counts. im not going to expose my age, but i cannot afford to have any distractions, especially scratch. which gets to my next point. scratch is WAY to addictive for me. i am like TOO active. every morning, afternoon, night, every spare second i get, i check scratch just to talk to people i havent even seen or fully met before. to make projects. to be in this environment where the community is losing people. to talk to people. and it is sooooooo addictive. like i cannot stress enough how over productive i am on scratch. an example is now. an example is literally im supposed to be revising for my test but instead im on scratch. this is harmful for my wellbeing and overall persona. also, i have extracurricular activities. like so many. next week im performing in a concert, im going to be backstage for another, i have athletics, swimming, and tennis. its so much. and with scratch, again, its distracting me from my performance in all of these things. also, tbh, im actually not supposed to be in here. it started when in primary school, we were doing a coding project in like year 5. i then got interested in scratch and THATS why im here. and also my parents. they dont even know i use scratch. and if they do, i will be in deep ship. also, ngl, scr is SO boring. my notifs have dropped, the only notifs i get is 'there was update in the studio____ like 50 diff studios THIS FEELS D3AD. i love you all. each and every one of you all. this has been a journey, a rollercoaster ride that i feel sick to get off. i've made friends. so many. (notes coming soon!) im almost at 200 followers. i feel terrible writing this. i dont want to leave. but scratch is bad for me and i know i have had enough. i love you, im sorry. <33 </3
