half of my family (about 4-5 people) are extroverts. they keep inviting people, and I have social anxiety, it's not diagnosed, but I know that I'll spend most of the time being silent, or sitting in my room reading. I don't want to be around people who I don't know well. I like the small Thanksgivings of us and a few family friends. That alone fills the house with noise. This year we're having a family (7), a single guy (1), a single blind guy (1) , maybe a single girl (1), my whole family except one (10), another single girl (1). 21 people. I don't feel comfortable with that. But what can we do? We can't uninvite everyone, its THANKSGIVING. But whats worse, it piles extra work on for my mom, and she barely gets out of the kitchen on a NORMAL THANKSGIVING, WHICH IS NORMALLY ABOUT 13 PEOPLE. WHAT'S SHE GONNA DO?! I feel so terrible. People KEEP inviting more and more, and I'm getting so stressed. If I had more school I'd be having a mental breakdown. I am NOT excited. I love people. I don't wanna make them uncomfortable, or unhappy, or like I don't like them, but I won't feel comfortable. I'll feel tense the whole time, and I don't even know what to do about it. I can't wait for this whole ordeal to be over with.
don't get me wrong, I love Thanksgiving, but I'm just not looking forward to it this year.
