Few days was kinda making me stressed and annoyed I felt rlly obligated to tell my friend every update and it kinda made me sad because it can kinda risk me not being able to talk to my gf for a long time again when I tried to say she couldn’t answer it kinda just turned into …. Whatever …. Happened and I was scared to let my friend down with there being no new updates to the point I just got scared and faded out of existence I didn’t like it but I kinda had to and when I tried to explain smth I kinda had people talking over me when kinda also made me up and with stuff happening at school with my rival getting my friend’s crush to make her jealous and stuff I’m just a time bomb waiting to explode atp I’m ready to just call it quits it is solved for now but I really don’t wanna talk to people anymore I love human interaction esp with my friends and gf but I’m scared for what will happen. So I’m going to take a break until school starts I’m to stressed and I’m genuinely still upset I feel like things aren’t solved on my side still and k wanna talk about it but whenever I do talk I feel pressured and get really upset and whenever I’m mad I need a day to cool off and stuff and when my friends do kept texting me I wanted to mute them but I couldn’t really do much cause if I do it would show I left them on read and stuff I just wanna disappear and some stuff my art teacher said made me upset and stuff I hate it here and people kinda downplay stuff ( if it helps I live in the down town area where the cops don’t do anything your car is getting broken into they don’t care but they care when you pull out a machete and about to beat the guy up) I’m just over all hate the people at my school and in my life found out my mom didn’t want me she wanted a daughter who loved pink and stuff and I just can’t anymore but anyways have a good break my Ohio skibidis see you mondayyyy
