I don't get why I stick around I'm always getting hurt.... or upsetting someone... everyone says I have a purpose... is it just annoying everyone I care about?.... I cant keep fighting if im losing everything I'm fighting for... then what's the point.... I'm breaking but I say I'm fine.... I'm hurting but I'm saying I'm okay.... Im dead inside but I act as if I feel none of the pain being caused... I'm lashing out at the person who has helped me the most this ain't like me...Im not me anymore.... idk who I am anymore... maybe the demon everyone who hurt me created... but that's just great bc ik that moster ain't something I can take... idk how to get rid of him and everytime something happens to hurt me he gets strong... idk how much longer I can fight him back... shoot I might have already lost... I've been broken... backstabbed.... left... abandoned... guilt-tripped.... I cant keep up this life... I feel like the bad person even tho everyone says I'm not.... idk anymore.....
