3 weeks till winter break! but i'm not happy about it. after christmas then is my last few months then i'm out and i think that means i'll lose everything i've made here and thats made me think about even more things i might not be able to save stuff i made for my stories, i'll lose everything here on scratch and then i'll be thrown into the real world which isn't easy to live in, and thats lead to many more thoughts of "am i really a good person", "could i ever truly be loved", or am i just destined to be alone for the rest of my future and be hated by everyone, it's kinda funny i made my shadow demons as a story that not everthing is so black and white and that a creature like that could be a hero but i guess i made my shadows for one reason initially; to have a place to hide from unwanted attention, maybe I should just crawl into the imbrace of imagination and never come out, after all its probably where I belong
why does life have to feel like your own personal hell sometimes. my dreams are fantasies, my hopes are delusions, and my life is a joke
