I’m kinda upset but it’s on me mainly because I can’t go a day without attention if I don’t really get attention I just kinda upset earlier my friend was venting I kinda felt left out on details I wanna ask and stuff but I feel like I can’t it’s not the first time it’s every time I have to ask in over for them to finally explain I know one of them will look at this and I don’t want them to respond to this. I want to always seem respectful but I feel like the nice side of me is just kinda fading and making me rude and I don’t want to do this anymore I raged yesterday because i felt like a man yesterday and I hate it I don’t wanna go through this but I feel like I’m trapped like a bird in a cage like there is no escape and where I was venting to my friend abt it they said that they are sorry abt sound rude which is fine but I just don’t know how to feel anymore. I also just finished school when I was checking the messages and I kinda felt really mad I wanna talk to someone but ik they don’t really care heh… they only respond and ask questions which sometimes aren’t related I wanna take a break again but I don’t know anymore I wanna turn to my gf and cry to her but she dosent know how to react she is the love of my life but that is something that makes me really upset but she gives me a lot of attention which I adore about her but I feel like she dosent really listen to me when I tell her someone is genuinely bad. But anyways back to earlier my friends were venting but I feel like they didn’t notice it was the gc instead of the actual 1 on 1 texts I wanted to say something but they were venting so I didn’t until my school officially ended for the day then I asked what happened and they just said venting and when I asked what happened they kinda just didn’t respond until I said I won’t read if u don’t want me to and one of them said good and I’m just kinda here on the other like like “…” because at first it was a trio that no one gets left out now it’s feel like I wanna leave and I’m genuinely upset I want to tell my friend but I know he will misinterpret it next time they call I just won’t answer anymore my just sick and tired and I’m mad
