I don't matter. I do not matter in the slightest definition of the word. My one, only purpose, is to please others. I do not deserve anything, i only need to give and be given nothing in return. Everything about me that doesn't give to others is completely useless. I do not need entertainment, praise, sympathy, understanding, justification, or any basic human right. I exist to give to others, die, and never be remembered once. No one should ever look at me as a friend, or anything even close to a decent human being. They should all look at me as a clueless, exploitable, gullible, autistic moron. I do not matter. I never did.