I know I hurt you but does that make this ok? I see your coping mechanism and it ruins my day But I'm afraid to stand up for myself, afraid of what I'll say So I find myself slowly fading away One hundred and eighty new messages, one hundred and ninety-nine missed calls After all the time spent on the phone trying to help you get through it, trying to ease the fall I did what was best for me And in the end, you see, it was best for both of us I'm a mess, I am broken but you are too We are separated to be fixed to new So don't make me the villain just 'cause we weren't meant to be That's not down to my control, I had to leave You don't know how long it took me to block you I found it hard so don't act like I was never good to you I felt like I was trapped, forced to stay But I had friends that told me that it was not okay So I left before it got too much I wasn't prepared for when you made the first punch I said I wanted space but you wouldn't give up Made it harder for yourself but it would never be enough 'Cause what went on between us seemed fine Until I looked a little closer and saw the inside What I didn't want to do was start a fight Because you know that's not me, you know that's not right But I felt like I had no choice I'm still stuck under your shadow, screaming out for a voice But it came, it's here now, I'm speaking out I'm not playing the victim, I'm out and proud It maybe wasn't toxic, but I know you're not blind And I know you know deep down that that was bad time So go on Ask for me back Do again and again, but don't expect me to crack I've grown, you've seen it more than ever So take credit for that, or dont, it's whatever You may think I finally got what I wanted But you're just looking at what I've achieved I was there for you before But this one, it's for me I left because I needed to and you told me you knew that So if you ever really loved me this is how you prove that When I say need time, I'm telling you, I mean that I'm broken, I'm fixing myself I hope you understand that
