(for more context on the events leading up to this srp, i recommend checking out these three links before continuing! https://scratch.mit.edu/projects/1111637139/ (srp) https://scratch.mit.edu/projects/1047043922/ (plot project), and https://scratch.mit.edu/projects/1115604022/ (tsd lore!) it’ll be very confusing otherwise <3 ) ——- ✦ -—— “yesterday all my troubles seemed so far away now it looks as though they’re here to stay” the snakes were first, i remember them. that's when we all started to sink, bit by bit. i was only a kit back then, on that fateful day, when i had gone out into the nursery. when i had met one of them, with their weird shaped bodies, the scales that lingered on their flanks. “psyche's clutch! nemesis' clutch!" seraph and huntress. "come look at this!" is what i had yelled. they should have been a threat to me, i know. but I could only stare in amazement, my eyes wide with wonder. another mystery of the world, a puzzle right before my gaze. huntress had heard my cries. "are you going to hurt it?" i positioned my body in front of the reptile, wide with alert. would she have hurt the creature, if not for me, if i had not kept my back turned? little did i know, little did i know the snakes only bite when i turn a blind eye. anguis in herba. snake in the grass, betrays you only when you’re not looking. maybe i should have been the one to turn around. and that's when we started to sink. and then came the floodwaters, and then we began to collapse, all at once. what did i do? what did i do wrong? it must have been me. i must have done something. always the one who messes everything up, right? we were all so happy. we were all so . . . so whole. a whole, actual family. like the ones i used to see as a kit, watching that unfamiliar boy in the nursery hug his mom, sisters right at his side, smiling as if he couldn’t be happier, as if he was just in one giant, unknown universe, ready to be discovered. he had told her that he loved her, that they would always be together, no matter where they were. no matter how far apart they were. and now i’m sinking. farther and farther down. i wish i had done something. i wish i had told mom how much she meant to me, should have hugged her a little tighter that day before she left. should have told huntress and seraph everything. i should have told them everything that happened to me in thunderclan, how much i hated them for living their perfect lives here. their perfect, pristine lives here as the leaders of this dynasty. and how much i hate myself for it. how they were my everything. my whole world, with its fascinating fantasies and weird little trinkets. i’m a coward. i’m such a coward. i didn’t do enough to keep my home going, to keep everyone i loved safe. i should have done something, maybe if i worked a little harder, maybe we would all be okay. maybe i could have protected everyone from the mysteries of this world. the /horrors/ of this world. what have i done? and now we’re all stranded. and now i have nowhere to go. they hate me in thunderclan, i can’t go back. i can’t go anywhere. i don’t have a home anymore, not this ruin that once was the serpentine dynasty, not my own clan. i can’t go with them. i can’t go with huntress and seraph, probably off to go join some clan. i can’t go back there. not after all those days in my nest, as the tears became the floodwaters that became my demise, as i hung my head low, as my clanmates whispered names when i wasn’t looking. i wish i could have told that little kit how strong he was, how brave he was to keep going on, to keep on carrying the weight of the universe on his shoulders. so i’ll just leave then? i’ll leave, escape where no one can find me. maybe it’s for the better. maybe i was always meant for a life of solitude. why do i always run? why do i always hide? he’s going going gone ——- ✦ -—— MAN writing this srp was such a doozy for me — i almost started tearing up while i wrote this, anenome being sad makes me sad too :( normally it takes me about a week to plan out the whole srp, make the thumbnail, and then write it, while also leaving in time for breaks, but with the news of the serpentine dynasty’s destruction hitting me so suddenly, i had to figure out what i was going to do with anenome and cram this within just two days. i’m really drained from writing this srp and, in order to avoid burnout, have decided to take the next few days off as i get settled back into school! i’ll respond to all roleplays and relationship finder things tomorrow, but i’m going to put everything else on a small pause to recuperate, and then i’ll be back and ready to go!! <3 expect a lot of new anenome-related things coming soon !!! thank you so much for reading all the way down here, i hope this srp broke your heart as much as it broke mine making it :D /hj
