hi everyone. this is a dump/rant but please. listen fyi: i havent gotten my computer taken away just YET. we r leaving on 6th jan and i will have my comp till friday. anyway- *+ so baisically when i first came to sydney which was on (5th december 2024), i met this guy. he was in my church. i wont disclose name for priv matters. he was sweet but obvsly i didnt like him romatically at that time. i met him, he was sweet and everthing. he was the son of the pastor and i would visit his house almost everyday cz he lived like less than 1 min nxt to me. the first time i met him, was on a dark night around 8? there was a meeting at his house and there was a girl with him but she was jst a girl attending the meeting and they werent that close. we all talked and he was sweet. soon enough, i began falling for him. i told myself 'no don't' but eventually i did. *when i fall in love with someone, i usually like them for like a lifelong period. until i stop seeing them for like straight 3 months or smth*. so yes, i fell for him and we talked a lot and he seemed to enjoy my company. we eventulally got supppperr close. he would tease me and do all sorts of things, *eg - wink at me etc.* then fast forward, my brother got sick once and they had to take him to the hospital and since i would be alone, my parents sent me to his house. IT WAS THE BEST NIGHT FR. me and him stayed up till 6am. so let me explain. he had the bottom bunk and i had the top but after 15 min, he came to my bunk and lied next to me. and let me tell you, it was a SINGLE BED ASDFGHJK. ok anyway- we talked and everything, he called me beautiful, we both measured our hand sizes to see whose was taller (his was taller) and he even sang 'from the start' by laufey for me. it was so dreamy and HOW COULD I NOT FALL FOR HIM?. Plus during car rides, he made up this game where during swerves, he would lean into me and press aganist my body. he would then tickle me blahblahblah. he was literally making me go CRAZY. then he gave me his 'dc' and then we started talking and he even sent me a RED HEART AND CALLED ME HIS 'Boss lady' ?? then fast forward to 2 wks after that. or maybe 3 days lol. he started acting super rude around me. idk why. but i js brushed it off. i talked to him eventually cz i couldnt keep up with it and i spammed him saying hallo. like 4 times? then he was like 'bro stop it. ur annoying. stop texting me' then i was like 'oh... okay'. but every morning and night, i would wish him gm or gn. he wouldnt txt back tho. then slowly he started talking, laughing and everything to the girl in church the one i was tlaking about when i first met him. plus, i told her i like him. shes a good freind tho. well one time tho i told her his fav song and she wanted to play that song in church the next day or smth but i brushed it off cz she likes that song too. anyway shes sweet and nice to me. today. (shes one of my closest freinds lol.) that girl told me something TO-DAY. so baiscally there was like this little park meetup and i was meant to go but i couldnt bcz off stuff (moving etc.). my crushes dad asked him if he will miss me and my brother. then he said 'i wont miss (my name) but her brother i will miss like 50-60% ??' like- BRO U CANNOT BE SAYING THAT AFTER ALL THAT YOU DID WITH ME-. i dont wanna be that one girl but bro- CERTAIN BOYS I SWEAR! ASDFGHJK. i literally made so many diff versions of myself to prove that i was good for him. the story didnt end well at all. and 'u know who u r' if ur reading this, i wish we could have one more meangingless conversation. and i REALLY like u. *BTW HE HAS SCRATCH I USED TO FLLW HIM LOL. BUT I UNFOLLOWED. Also hint: he fllws me at so yeah. whats ur opinion?*
