Hey everyone uhm...I found out yesterday that my GF cheated on me with a guy, yes the one girl I've been with for almost 2 years...and she showed no remorse. I was told by many that I handled the situation very calmly even the guy she cheated on thanked me later for it...I feel bad for him because she's us...using him for his "magic downstairs" if you catch my drift...I tried to fix it but she refused every idea we ALL tried to come up with. The reason why I'm texting this is I'm so...lost I guess...I don't know what to feel and I have no way to express it because it's just everything all at once and my brain won't j-just shut up and wants to keep reminding me of what I've lost that day and I really don't even want to go to school because I-I don't want to be the boy who wears his masked smile again...just like I was so long ago... I don't know what to do and have told my friends but, you know how it is, boys just say it'll pass but...this is really hard on me and I just want some help...seriously P.S I haven't been able to sleep it's 1:02 am right now, and I've only maybe gotten 3 hours of sleep so far... The thing that hurt me the most is that I did nothing wrong! yet...I must have done something wrong or else she would've done this. I don't know...and uh...this week and Christmas break was...let's say dookie. My mom has cancer and so MANY different things that the doctors can't seem to figure out what it is, she's losing weight and she went into surgery the same DARN DAY THAT SHE BROKE UP WITH ME...she only cried a little when I told her that too and after that it was no emotion to me...my mom's in the hospital right now... But even though I hate her right now I can sense one emotion...anger... guilt for some reason...maybe because she taught me so MUCH about dating and life but also showed me there are limits to happiness and things like this sometimes...it hurts...r-really bad and from all her gifts it's like everywhere I turn is just this painfully reminder of what I've lost in my life...her smile in a picture I threw away from our first prom dance...her stuffie's she bought for me so I could cuddle them and feel like it was her...and her damn clay whale shark that I don't have the heart to break since it's the closest thing I have to holding her hands that she so...carefully crafted and painted to be as derpy as possible for me, hehe...eh....anyway, that's been my week...I want some insight, that's all ------------------------------------------- UPDATE: PLEASE READ! Okay look...everything is happening at such a fast pace but...I went to her house and just talked with her...one on one and she said that what Paden told me wasn't the full story. After the mistake of her going over him to get her shirt he wanted more from her...ya know 1nappr0pr1atly and she got trama from her past BF before me...she realized that she hasn't ever been alone for almost 3 years and she said that she would love to get back with me again but...it'll be awhile and I respect that...but I'm having issues with the guy. He keeps trying to be her friend and hangs out with her still making her like, you know tickle him and stuff like she does with all of us but...I think she likes him...and if that's the case then I can't stop it but yeah...it is what it is. If she wants to get with the dude that gave her that trama again and ignore me at school but act all sweet at her house then whatever.
