ideas - emotionless by choice - pushes off her feelings - gets dysphoric thinking about her history - "loves like a dog" - super clingy and desperate for love - doesn't seek attention though.. - touch deprived - "more than meets the eye ahh" cat - struggles with anxiety, depression and insomnia - goes through a whole acceptance arc thing - when older, i feel like she'd teach younger cats about her story and that it's okay to have different experiences than the crowd - will probably clan hop/doesn't feel comfortable in one place for a long time - has trust issues, and will always, always secretly question her friendships, relationships, etc. - depending on the personality of her sibling, she either doesn't know what to think about them/indifferent or they're really close - changes through how she styles her accessories and fur (doesn't like looking the same for too long) - fears being hated/is a people-pleaser - tends to speak her mind if it benefits - when she matures, i feel like she'd stop worrying about how other see her, although old habits are hard to shake.. - deep, feminine vc- im thinking of garnet from su but its rly overused so ill js look around lol - always has a relaxed posture and expressions- extremely hard to read/isn't expressive - she hates nicknames.. only a select few (such as her sibling or a significant other) can use them without confrontation lol - her resting face is a mix of "i'll beat you up" and "i'm just a chill guy" if that even makes sense - she's really insecure about her physical appearance (especially her arm) and will always struggle with it (literally fight me about this if you want lmao?? everyone's insecure abt something smh..) - artists/bands i associate with her (in general) are alex g, duster, frank ocean, the crane wives, d4vd, hemlock springs, laila!, tv girl, mitski, summer walker, pinkpantheress, novulent and the cults... ik its a lot but real ones will get this lol - i feel like she'd be hella mature for her age - if she ever got an apprentice, she'd plan out the perfect training program for them lol - because she chooses to be a nonchalant dreadhead she'll most likely have panic attacks or go through lot's of moments where her thoughts get the best of her since she's uncomfortable expressing her feelings (if ykyk) - she is very interested in things like poetry, art and cultures (when she clan-hops i'm sure she'll try and find others who share her interests- assuming that there are none in thunderclan.) - usually replies in short sentences when meeting new cats/cats she isn't comfortable with. when she warms up to someone she'll use really long words and sometimes even use symbolization or double-meanings - her heart is set on her future desires but her mind focuses on the present struggles; very conflicted about things - somewhat indecisive? she makes the choice that she thinks is right for her at the moment but often will look back and be like "oh crap.." LOL - i feel like she'd struggle with talking about her feelings in general and would definitely not openly vent about "deep down" stuff - kinda a loner; if she meets someone she thinks is neat though.. that's a different story - easily annoyed by cats who are immature (exceptions to the obvious like. literal children lol) and she /especially/ hates cats who play the victim/start drama. additionally, she dislikes those who speak of things that they have no business in (like a couple breaking up, talking bad about other clan/outsiders' way-of-living, etc.) more tba sighs.. expect a forum application lol
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