Hello there, as you may know I don't have the best relationship with my parents and it's completely gotten worse. I've been trying to do my best as a human being but it's certainly hard and now I've been worse than ever in my life. I recently had some of the worse experiences in my life happen last night and I've lost everything for a semi-permanent time now. What happened was I was asking to be excused from the dinner table and my dad said yes so I started going upstairs, he asked to see my phone and [logically] I deleted my messages to keep some privacy, well they didn't like that and wanted to talk to me about it. So they did and made everything worse, at some point in the conversation my burner was mentioned and I REALLY didn't want to explain the phone whatsoever, I made up something on the spot and said "I bought it off ebay for like, 70 - 80 dollars-" and explained some things I really did to keep myself safe from their wrath and finding out. They then gave me a punishment and said "You've lost everything, and you will not be getting your phone back or anything like that, you won't be doing many activities and stuff and finally, you won't be having privacy or free will in this house." so that is fun, then I went upstairs to get my hair-cut for jrotc finally [it's super short now and I generally hate it.] and while that was happening my dad was stalking my purchase history and said "So you lied to me?" and I just nodded and he said "Where did you actually get the phone." and I explained I got it from a kid in my school for around $40 and he said "There is no way you got a phone that cheap? Where did the kid get it?" and I responded "I don't know, most likely from another kid?" and he said "So he stole it you crook, thief." and I just shrugged and said "I wouldn't know." and he said "You've just made your life worse, you have some new punishments me and your mother will be discussing." and guess what, 1. I'm not allowed to hang out with my friends, have access to money, or have a free will outside of school. 2. I am being taken off my robotics team, I'm supposedly supposed to break up with my partner [forcefully may I add] and I won't be allowed to see her whatsoever. 3. My free will whatsoever is gone and my mom is probably taking my door off and having just a curtain as my bathroom door [no privacy haha.] and now I've generally got no ideas, no one I've talked to knows what to do, and now I'm mentally in a darker place, knowing that my parents hate me and anyone I'm close to. outside of school hours I will 9/10 times be inactive, nothing will happen, and any thing I've wanted to work on is legit, gone. Motivation has sunk and now I just want to cry myself to sleep. But oh well. I'm not going to break up with my partner and certainly not going to stop being friends with my friends but.. I didn't sleep last night, I couldn't. I already had sleep problems but now it's gotten 10x worse. This is me from about 9:10am 1/13/2025 and if anything changes I'll update this. Any messages from me on my phone # or any other site other than scratch is not me, don't trust it unless I specifically say something that only you and I would know.
