Oh god, this feels so weird.. I haven't been on scratch for almost 2 years now... Anyways hey.. fellow scratchers?? How are you all doing? So the reason for this project is to explain why I left 2 years ago. (I won't be coming back, I might log on occasionally) So I was around 11-12 when I left scratch, overwhelmed by the new era of middle school. Everyone was different and starting to hit puberty. Of course, I wanted to fit in, I mean who wouldn't want to? It hurts being called "weird" or "cringy" in middle school. I was still kinda into gacha and anime during that time, and embarrassingly... I didn't hide my anime side that much. So of course I got made fun of and yk since they bullied me I cried almost every single night before going to bed. During this time, I realized, my mental health wasn't doing so great, I was very $ui$idal and I just couldn't deal with this anymore. I lost all joy and motivation in watching anime or making gacha projects for you guys. I desperately wanted to fit in with my peers. so I decided to leave scratch. Now I knew this was going to hurt most of my online friends and the people who have supported me along the way. But I thought it was for the best, I was so stressed from school, sports, and other things that I had no time to even think! since I wasn't posting on Scratch that much during that time, I decided to leave without giving that much information. After I left scratch, it felt like I had a huge weight taken off of my shoulders. However, there was also an amount of guilt. Leaving scratch gave me more time to focus on school and my social life, I ended up being very ambitious and got straight A's But even though I left scratch, I still felt messed up and I didn't want to be in this world at all. I only started to get better after I entered 7th grade I also realized my immune system was getting kinda weak, and I seriously needed to take care of that. I never really told anyone about these problems (except close friends) I suffered with anxiety a lot during 6th grade and it definitely wasn't the best. I'm sorry if I didn't really explain that well because I'm kinda bad at explaining lol. Time skip- Into the present: I'm doing slightly better now! I have a ton of new friends, and my mental health still needs a little work but at least I'm not as $ui$idal now. I got into Honors Math and English, which took a while to achieve but I did it! Now I have a boyfriend and he's the best thing that has ever happened to me! <33 ____________________________________________ Socials: Pin- Rikaex1 Roblox- Victoriaever2011 /!\ I might not respond to your messages on time so please forgive me !! p.s- there is a little more in the story but those are very personal. ____________________________________________ Some fun facts about me! 1.) I played the flute for 3 years! 2.) I love to bake! especially any type of cookie! 3.) I still fw Miraculous Ladybug (I'm a very loyal fan ngl) 4.) I'm a shopping addict (its unhealthy) 5.) I am standing tall at 5'6 (167.64 cm) 6.) I LOVE to read books! my favorite series might be the shatter me series, AGGTM, cruel prince, and many more! 7.) I'm drinking hot chocolate while typing this out. ____________________________________________ Anyways, that's it! cya in maybe in like every blue moon?? Blaire is signed out~
