low key I'm so done with all the pressure I'm getting from my parents to be the perfect child they've always wanted but I don't think I can . i haven't done anything for myself in like 3 weeks but its still not enough for them . I'm convinced I'll never be enough . I wish I was the person I act like I am on scratch . I just want to be enough . life isn't fun anymore . I didn't used to have to fake a smile but now I spend almost all my energy convincing everyone I'm fine . and I'm so scared of letting someone down that I'm letting myself go . plus basically the only friend I could trust turned out to be using me and then proceeded to talk about me behind my back and now the whole school thinks I'm an actual psychopath . and my health isn't that great either and I might have diabetes ( idk yet ) and I've literally had like seven asthma attacks this week . I'm tearing myself apart and there's nothing I can do about it .
