Maddie's musical therapy ------------------------------------- After classes I go to the room of requirement. (which for me is a nice big cozy bedroom with posters all over the wall it looks like mixing girly with tomboy which is so me) I lock the door to be sure no one will walk in and I put in my CD of the song fat funny friend. I take a deep breath and sing "I stay quiet hoping they don't question my size and im nice but I could be the next punch line" im moving along as I sing "I'm just the best friend who's always supportive and the girl gets the while I'm standing off screen I just wait for my que to be venting relief" I sigh "can't be to loud can't be to busy if I don't answer now are they still gonna need me can't be to proud can't think I'm pretty do they keep me around just to be supportive" I look down "I say I'm ok cuz they wouldn't care anyway I could try to explain but they can't relate how I've imagined where I'd take the scissors if that's what it took for me to happily look at my body I've done what I can to make me look thinner so why do I still feel so god damn inferior" I take a deep breath "Can't be too loud, and can't be too busy if I don't answer now, are they still gonna need me Can't be too proud, and can't think I'm pretty Do they keep me around just for support life of the fat supportive friend life of the fat supportive friend" trying not to tear up "It's funny when I think someone likes me and It's funny when I'm the one who says let's go and eat It's funny when I'm asked to go out on Halloween DRESSES AND THIGH HIGHS WHILE I HIDE MY BODY" tearing up "can't be to loud can't be to busy if I don't answer don't answer now are they still gonna miss me CAN'T BE TO LOUD CAN'T BE TO BUSY if I don't answer now are they still gonna need me can't be to proud can't think I'm pretty do they keep me around just for support" sighs "Life of the fat, funny friend Life of the fat, funny friend Life of the fat, funny friend Life of the fat, funny friend" almost crying "I've imagined many times where I'd take the scissors" sits on the bed and cries.
kinda depressing ik but it was the only idea i had so enjoy it
