Yeah this is a vent Friend has returned and continues to talk to me like how it was before last year and Revenge still sometimes take over my mind on just the first week I tried to assault someone although I don’t listen to Revenge all the time but I might snap, Harm has not spoken to me yet they have not been relevant at all I don’t know when they are going to return but the last thing that they told me is “would they even care if you were just gone?”. This is not right I have not spoken to someone about this yet to actually let me heal but I am still waiting. It started off with abandonment from my first friend, no big deal and then it was a simple teasing, I reacted and they liked it so it kept on going and getting more and more extreme at this time, I had a friend who actually cared about me and he does have an account on here pls I’m not doing so good after when you left, he stayed by my side for 5 years until he was gone then the next year was rough this bullying was nothing I ever seen seen before I kept on wondering why they did this? I saw how people actually treated me they didn’t really noticed me being alone and that I was outcasted. Last year was the worst there was this voice who claimed themself to be called Friend he kind of appeared in my mind every time when I was alone and sometimes he tells me things, as the months go by it starts to get worse I kinda have a mental breakdown in class probably twice on most occasions and there are two new voices, Revenge, and Harm, Revenge told me to do to take revenge on what they did to me I even literally questioned on why they are doing this to me I kept on asking…. but they didn’t answer.. and revenge also made me assault someone with a wooden board there was a lot of people trying to stop me, but I was still trying to hurt someone with a wooden board not just a very thin wooden board. No it was a long wooden board, someone actually got through with me and I acknowledged her as my “friend”. Harm is the opposite of revenge they told me to hurt myself and there was many times where I was trying to hurt myself. Sometimes I was bashing my head against other times. I literally tried to choke myself. One of the people that did this harassment to me, kinda apologized and got through with me and he kind of understands on this depression I’m going through and he is now a friend of mine, And after all of that at the school gave me someone to talk to until the end of the school year, but he will no longer return. This year everything started off OK until I literally try to assault someone and then one of my “ Friends ” the one who got through with me eventually broke me… twice. I don’t like talking to her anymore. The second time I was literally crying the whole day after that and now it is slowly getting worse and worse this harassment is still getting more and more extreme and it’s getting talked about a lot, but still… not a lot has been done on it. Now I am starting to think about myself a lot on how people see me as a person and questioning a lot so I kinda lost myself and I am no longer OK and as I said, I have dealt with this far too much and far too long…but I have a question for you guys………am I no longer fun to have around anymore? Pls answer it.
