**To Wa11y_D8rl1ng and Charlies-Secret,** I don’t even know where to start, but I guess the most important thing to say is that I’m sorry—truly, deeply sorry. I never wanted things to end up this way, and I hate that we’re here now, feeling hurt and distant from each other. That was never what I wanted. I never meant to make either of you feel like I didn’t care or that I was trying to hurt you. Because the truth is, I did care. I still do. I know I made mistakes. I know I handled things badly. There were moments when I should have communicated better, when I should have been more careful with my words, and when I should have taken a step back before reacting. I wasn’t trying to manipulate anyone, and I wasn’t trying to stir up drama—I just got overwhelmed. I was dealing with my own emotions, and instead of expressing them properly, I ended up making things worse. For that, I take responsibility. I wish I had done things differently. I cherished the time I had with both of you. Those moments meant so much to me, and I never took them for granted. I never wanted things to fall apart like this. Losing you both feels like losing a part of myself, and it hurts more than I can even put into words. But I understand if you don’t want to talk to me anymore. If you feel like cutting me out of your lives is what’s best for you, then I will respect that. I just wanted to say my piece—to say I’m sorry for everything, for any pain I caused, for any misunderstandings, and for not being better when I should have been. I know I can’t change the past, no matter how much I wish I could. All I can do now is apologize and hope that, in time, you can find peace and happiness, even if it’s without me in your lives. Take care, both of you. No matter what happens from here, I won’t bother you anymore. But please know that I never wanted to lose you, and I’ll always wish you the best.
