Here’s a random update that no one asked for I’ve been learning a few new things, such as… 3D modeling and animating. Very new to it and I have to rely on school for the computer so yeh Indonesian. I’ve already learned lots in this short time since I’ve begun, but I’m not too great at active understanding and speaking it quite yet, but it’s only been like a week. Besides that I’ve nailed the basics like grammar and common words. (Re)Discovered Labirhin a bit ago (Indonesian 3D animator and artist) and it gave me some wild motivation. Drove me to learn 3D modeling and animating, and his film “The stars are falling” drove me to learn Indonesian. I also love his art style, so I’ve been doing some style study recently. His webcomic Mau Makan Apa (What to eat) is mostly what inspired my style study and such. It also inspired me to create one story to focus on for years. I’ve been working on it, but I’m pretty unsure abt it. Semi-new things: Figured out what my migraines were caused by, of which was basically semi-intense physical activity and possibly high sodium intake. Lovely. I also discovered I have tinnitus, and likely the chronic version. I always had a ringing in my ears, ever since I was a kid, and I thought that was normal. Turns out it’s not, and as they say “You don’t feel the pain til you see the cut,” sorta thing, I didn’t notice it until I discovered what it was. I’m basically cooked. It derails my train of thought very often, it keeps me up at night, and it makes me lose focus all the time. It takes up roughly 50%-80% of my brain volume, whatever that even means. So now with my migraines, I can’t see, nor can I hear. Very lovely. New addition: Photophobia. Heightened sensitivity to light, a cause from my migraines. Another new addition: Phonophobia. Heightened sensitivity to sounds, caused by many factors. My photophobia is 100% during my migraines, but maybe just regularly. Or maybe I’m just whiny and my eyes are regular Migraines, tinnitus, photophobia, phonophobia, and asthma. Having senses kinda sucks tbh Other things: Still working on guitar, but a bit less. I haven’t been playing bass nearly as often tho. My multipotentialism has gotten VERY annoying, and now I lowkey have like 20 hobbies/skills/interests/future plans. Art, animating, 3D modeling, 3D animating, guitar, bass, writing, photography, tennis, and probably a bunch more that I can’t think of right now. Sadly, I have dropped a lot of things like my old stories and such. I took a personality test to find out I am an INFP-T, whatever that means. As usual I’ve continued making billions of stories in vain, wasting time and potential. Very wild. I’ve definitely been sifting through skills and such, but I think I’ve found my thing. I’ve always been into representation of my creativity, whether that be in writing the dumb stories in my head, drawing the characters from stories, and animating them. But I think 3D animating will be the peak. It’s the clearest possible way to visually represent my creativity. It’s not just a 2D picture of a character, it’s not just an animated 2D character, it’s not just a voiceless picture, it’s everything all at once. It’s not just words on a page of a story, it’s not just drawn panels for a story, nor is it a 2D animation of a story, it’s a frickin’ 3D world. Representation at its peak. And hey, maybe I can even do some voice acting of my own. I’ve always been a bit interested in that typa stuff. “Cinema is the peak of storytelling.” But yeah that’s bout’ it. Have joyous times waiting for the next post Also, what does silence sound like?
