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Yet another photo dump also- hi guys erm.. little vent... beware: A lot has changed over the past few months. I've lost a lot. I've gained a lot. I'm scared for the future, but am also so so excited. I plan on trying to be a wrangler this summer at a ranch in a different state. I'm hoping that'll all work out. School has been... hard? Which is crazy, because usually I'm on top of my game. However, I've been struggling with health issues and in turn my mind, so things have been a bit tough to push through. Even so, I am so grateful to have these ponies around. Without them, I fear I would be lost. It makes it hard trying to figure out what I want to do in the real world though. Ride horses all day? Everyone wants to do that. Do theater, act, sing? How could I fit horses in my life if I did that? And.. my school didn't even offer a good theater program, even though I did outside stuff with plays and such. Just own a business? Sure, but I fear I'm not the type of person who would enjoy it, even a little. Become a vet! Ha... everyone says that if you ask what career you want and still want horses. The thing is, I've had a phobia of shots ever since I was little and health stuff just isn't for me. Be a writer, director, someone who runs the ropes of the plot! Heh, little me would love that. But... again... money. I've been so lucky to be able to do all of the stuff I do. Even if it meant I pushed myself to my limits. I love it. Working with horses? Great. I love understanding their minds and calming them down, making a new friend. Acting, singing, performing? Always was a dream of mine (even did a 3 hour long play before lol). But how could I even fit it into my life? My mom wants me to do college. I've been struggling for some reason. I keep changing my majors. Business, to zoology, to education... to what else? Who knows. I don't know. I thought I had a grasp on that, but here we are. I suppose I'll just see were the saddle takes me. But how far will it even take me through life? Trust me, none of this was handed down to me. I had to work hard to get to where I am today with horses. I understand those who don't get these kind of opportunities, I do. But at least those people have come to terms on what they want to do. I want to do so much. Be so much. But.... now I'm just lost. Swirling around. anyways. sorry for the little rant. I'm just... idk. hope you like the photos :)