❝ᴵᵗ'ˢ ᵒᵏᵃʸ ᵗᵒ ᶜʳʸ ʷʰᵉⁿ ᵗʰᵉʳᵉ'ˢ ᵗᵒᵒ ᵐᵘᶜʰ ᵒⁿ ʸᵒᵘʳ ᵐⁱⁿᵈ ⁻ ᵀʰᵉ ᶜˡᵒᵘᵈˢ ʳᵃⁱⁿ ᵗᵒᵒ ʷʰᵉⁿ ᵗʰⁱⁿᵍˢ ᵍᵉᵗ ʰᵉᵃᵛʸ❞ □■□■□■□■□■□■□■□■□■□■□■□■ (press the green flag) - Before we get into the vent I wanted to say that I might be doing these types of projects more often because life is hard. I will still do fun projects, of course, but once in a while I need to vent and that's okay. but now onto the vent No. Everything isn't okay. Every day seems like an endless loop. The other day I was in the shower singing to Anti Hero by Taylor Swift when I just started crying. I didn't even know why. My life doesn't even feel like a life anymore. It's just one more mental breakdown, one more chore, one more test, one more pound gained, one more wasted day. I just moved on from toxic friends (Which is a different vent of it's own), but now, besides my sister, I literally have no friends. None. My mom is doing chemo right now, and my dad is having heart problems. I think I have ADHD and anxiety and maybe even depression, but I've never been tested and my parents think I'm just picking up on my sister's mental disorders. I'm so tired. All the time. I go to youth group but I feel like my relationship with God is just strained right now, and I don't want that. I want a healthy relationship with God, but I don't know how. And I can't talk about it really at all, except sometimes with my sister but she has her own problems and will be an adult in a couple of years anyways. My dog died last year, and I have a new one and she is as sweet as can be, but it doesn't mean I still don't miss my old dog. I hate my reflection and feel like I can't be sad or depressed or angry or anything that isn't happy cause then I'm just grumpy and a burden to everyone else. I want help. I want it to be okay to cry. I want that when I say "I'm fine" someone will come up to me and give me a big hug and say "It's okay. I know you aren't." Sorry, I know I was ranting. If anything similar to you happens then dw, I'm here for you and you can feel free to vent to me. Love you guys. ~Sirena
Alexa Bliss (WWE) is the girl in the gif The sound is from Tiktok, I think, I got it from another Scratcher so idk The music is Anti Hero by Taylor Swift
