I’m hoping that not very many people will see this. If you do, and you’re not a close friend of mine, I’d prefer you leave now. Please. I don’t want anyone aside from my friends to be seeing this. And, no, just because we follow each other does not make us friends. If we talk often enough that I will recognize your username, sure, keep reading. If not, you should have left even before reading this. So, to those of you that are still reading, hi. I’m kinda in a bad spot with life right now. I just learned I have anxiety, as well as A.D.H.D., and it’s kind of messing with me. Everyday things that I used to do are now making me second-guess myself. What if this is a sign of another disorder? What if I’m even more messed-up than I thought I was? No, I’m not saying that you’re messed up if you have anxiety or A.D.H.D., it’s just my brain worrying. My friend will be moving at the end of the school year, so… May? I think? I don’t have the energy to check my calendar. Anyways, he’s moving to Texas, and sure, I have his number, but I’ll go from seeing his face daily to maybe weekly, and I’m terrified that it will get to the point where we don’t speak at all. It doesn’t help that he’s Republican-raised and doesn’t see my point of view in politics. Then again, why should he? It won’t affect him whatsoever. This world is going to go insane with all the political crap that’s happening. I won’t go into detail, because I know some of y’all may not agree with me, and that’s fine. Like I said, my best friend doesn’t agree with me either. I honestly don’t care if you’re a Republican or Democrat. Just don’t talk to me if you’re the first one. I don’t wanna hear your stupid crap. These are just a few of my issues, a glimpse of what my head is like right now. But it’s terrifying for me to think about all of this. I hate it. I just thought I’d let you all know. I know I released a similar project recently, but I just want to curl up into a ball and cry. Fairly recently, I kept thinking that I wasn’t good for anything. I still kind of think that way. Like I said, I’m just in a bad spot right now mentally. -Asher
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