why world, why why am i l1v1ng in a world like this with people who say "your too young to be depressed" but not for me. not when you bipolar. not when you have terrible friends. not when you take so much energy to make ppl like you. not when you think abt sᴜ*ᴄ*ᴅᴇ as a ғᴜᴄᴋ*ɴɢ 12 year old. not when you live life not being able to sleep cos you think too much abt how ppl think of you, hoping they like you. thinking if you died that night if they would care or no. thinking if they are picking up on your ʙɪ ᴘᴏʟᴀʀ ᴀᴄᴛɪᴠɪᴛʏ even with the highest efforts to only show you happy, excited side at school, even if ppl are throwing insults at you and youre on the verge of crying. not when your hoping ppl dont know your sᴜ*ᴄɪ*ᴀʟ bcz you always use the same excuse "im tired" for every time that you want to cry or ᴋʏs or run in front of a train. average convo in the life of me: fake friend 1: hey ____ you ok? you look a little sad.. ____: oh im fine! dont worry abt me! im just tired. rough time sleeping last night. fake friend 1: oh ok! *forgets ____ exists* literally how am i still alive.
