hh i need help i have no clue what my religion is i'm so confused i know i believe in satan, even though he's different than i hear everyone talking about... i feel his presence and i feel protected by him when i pray to him, i know that... but i also don't agree with a lot of what i hear about theistic satanism- i honestly don't know that much but i know i don't believe in any form of God or Jesus existing or in magic... i agree with a lot of morals found in laveyan satanism, and i identified as a laveyan satanist for a while- i only started reading the satanic bible recently, however, as due to trauma i couldn't read ANY bible for a while... i sometimes feel like there's other deities too, though? like, i feel like i'm being watched over and protected by more than satan, but i don't know who it would be. i feel like there's multiple of them, and they all seem upset right now... i'm scared. are they mad i don't acknowledge them? is something bad happening? i'm so confused and need help from fellow satanists (and possibly anyone of other non-abrahamic religions) tldr; i know i'm a satanist but i don't know if i'm theistic or atheistic (stupid, i know) and i'm not sure if i believe in any other deities as well
i'd PREFER that christians don't interact with this please thanks /nm this project is about needing help from fellow satanists and i don't want to be attacked for that, i'm doing really poorly mentally already keeping this featured for like a day or until i get advice idk
