No loggin today just venting now! Tw Mentions of …. Uh idk how to say it And sh Dude I don’t know how long I can keep going because of how many problems are going on I just turned 13 and crap idk why I’m doing this anymore I just wanna leave permanently and for some people to be happy. I feel like I’m just dragging people down everyday I try not to break down so I don’t have to tell people the crap going on…. I care so much abt my friend who is kinda causing this but they think I’m lying because her boyfriend is A LYING CHEATING E BOY WHO IS A FREAKING CORN ADDICT! And I just can’t they say I did a lot of stuff I didn’t do and I legit can’t do it anymore I want to just go into the road and stand there and wait my phone is even giving me signs I’m going to take the signs one day….. I even feel worried for what happens if I die, im genuiney curious of if I go to heaven or hell don’t they this wrong I’m not Cristian at all but those two were kinda engraved in my mind since I was a kid and note I’m a sapphic lesbian (also girlflux) which my whole family views as a sin and kinda shuns you after from that light my cousin (my family didn’t shun him but his mom is trying not to) I want to just disappear like I was never here… the only thing keeping me sane are my friends , I love Amy (manwha I’m reading) and bok su from married in red….. I want to apologize for being a burden to people but ik it won’t matter anymore I have friends sure but it still hurts and I can’t do it anymore
