After I turned 9 I started trying to km$ and thought I wouldn't live past 14, and after 12 I started $h and trying to 0verd0$3 and dr0wn myself....My parents even found out when I first started $h because it was on my wrists and they just yelled at me at called me an attention seeker and said I had no reason to do it.. I then developed an eating disorder which resulted to body dismorphia which I'm still struggling with. I am clean as of 2 months I think and am struggling to stay clean..