Hey, ya'll!! So, recently I've been struggling a lot with my religion. My parents are both atheist, but I am reluctantly Christian. I don't even *want* to be a Christian, I don't feel a connection to the religion, but the existence of God and his rules are sort of just reality for me. Like, we all know the sky is blue. We don't think about it, we don't feel connection to it, it just is. I like the idea of going to church and really practicing my faith, it sounds comforting. But, at the same time, I've been told I'm not a 'real christian' because I'm queer. Similarly, I tried to join a Christian space once and instead of greeting me with love and acceptance (As the religion says they should), they tried to convert me. They said things like 'you can still repent' and 'god will forgive you'. It was actually kinda scary at one point :'D I also know several Christians who seem really cool!! Some of my IRL friends and ppl I've met on scratch are Christian, they seem like really nice ppl :33 But, accepting my faith is difficult for me. On the one hand, I really want to join Christian spaces and practice my religion. But on the other hand, I constantly have people telling me that a core part of my identity that I *can't change* is something that I need to be *forgiven for*. It's like if you walked up to somebody with naturally blonde hair and said "There's still time to repent and become a brunette. God will forgive you." Like. Yes, you can dye your hair and hide your natural hair color, but you will *never* actually have brown hair. Your hair will always be blonde. The blonde will always grow back. All you can do is hide it. (I'm actually so proud of that analogy :']) SO this is where I need you guys' help. What should I DOOOOO- For those of ya'll who are Christian, do you have any advice?? Plz guys this is so confusingggg-
