sometimes i wonder... ---------------- Sometimes I wonder if I’ll ever see you again, If you’d look at me and remember who I am; Because I’ve forgotten… lost in my own land. Sometimes I wonder if I was like everyone else. Someone who you could forget as easily; Someone who got erased from every memory. Sometimes I wonder if you ever looked back. And just thought… just for a moment. “Wow, I miss her.” Because I sure do. Sometimes I wonder if you still stay up at night, Plagued by the thoughts that you once whispered to me. Have you shared those secrets with someone else? Sometimes I wonder if I mattered to anyone at all. Because I don’t think I did. There’s always someone else. And you know what hurts the most? Is that the day I finally decided to give in, Was the same day you turned around and left. That the day when I was going to tell you everything… Was the day when you didn’t come back for me, And now I’m lost, not even knowing myself. And everyone thinks I’m carefree, Nobody sees the tears that I’ve wiped clean. Nobody even bothers to look…. Because I didn’t matter, Maybe I never did. And you, The only person who understood; Left. So now I’m here. Wherever that is, Lost in my own thoughts. Quietly begging to be seen, Quietly begging for help, But no one ever looks. You needed fire, I gave the spark, Re-lit your flame, banished the dark. Embraced the night’s howling wind… …but the sun would not rise again. Abandoned to the bitter cold, Thoughts I sought to bury deep; Crept up and whispered, soft and bleak. I’ve pushed myself right of the cliff, And now I’m stuck in free fall. With nobody to hear my scream… …the silence swallows all.
By yours truly <3
