letting go (leaving read desc)

Instructions

Hi everyone. If you are reading this, I am leaving Scratch permanently and this account will be deleted I starting from tomorrow. It has been a long 6 year journey for me here in Scratch as it holds a special place in my heart. While it holds a reminder for me to continue art, there has been things I have been dealing with outside. That’s when I have been thinking. Even in my desperate times. To let go. Let go of this online persona of mine, and allow myself to change. Even though I have been afraid that this will make me lose everything that I love, there hasn’t been a single period in my life that I felt like I allowed myself to breathe and enjoy life from the outside. As a kid I’ve always been sheltered and exposed by the internet as it becomes a place for me to cope. And I feel like with our consumption with the media and everything (and I will speak beyond anyone who resonates with this), we have built our personality with the urge to fit in. I get motivated to draw because I want to become popular one day, trying my best to improve my skills and hoping someday I can reach like those famous artists, but those longest desires doesn’t seem to exist. Except it’s just a mere illusion that I get obsessed with. In that process, I’ve tried so hard that I tend to lose my grip with reality and forget about my friends. Ive isolated them for the sake of attention. Ive been unable to speak to them properly, eat properly, sleep properly and overall love and treat myself properly. I regretted and lived for that suffering until now. I never wanted to share this because I get insecure talking about my vulnerabilities. But as crazy and ridiculous as this sounds, I’m deciding to quit doing art related content including my projects so I can fix everything and let this old habit go. School is another reason as well as I need to focus on looking for college and increasing my grades. But most importantly, I want to thank everyone here who has always been supporting me and be on my side. I will miss this place and you guys a lot. Although it is just a small, teeny tiny platform it had meant a lot to me. I hope you guys are doing okay as well Remember to love yourself than putting yourself to others because there is no shame in doing so. <3

Notes & Credits