Hey upper east siders, gossip girl here, and I have news. Firstly, I hit 100 followers today and I'm so grateful to everyone who's supported me on my scratch journey. Secondly, although this isn't ideal, i'm leaving scratch. it pains me to say this but i think i'm done with scratch. I have a few reasons. One, I cannot code and I don't understand how to therefore I cant make projects. Two, I'm way too busy to have another distraction in my life. Three, I feel like I constantly have to interact first, it's like watering dead plants. pointless and tiring. i dont have the time or energy to constantly message first without it being reciprocated. and four, i feel like i've aged out of scratch. this site is 8+ meaning most people on here are like 8-12 and i'm a teenager so i feel weird and almost gross when interacting with people closer in age to my little brother than myself. as i mentioned, im a teenager and that means college is in the not-so-distant future so i need to focus on school. i don't have time to stay up and finish that banner, to sneak onto scratch to talk to my friends in different timezones, i just can't keep doing this because on of these days my grades or my sleep schedule might start to actually suffer. the aesthetic community is such a fun creative place to be. the "drama" is nothing compared to the wonderful people who support and inspire each other that make up this community. i'm so very grateful for you all and this short chapter of my life. you'll all be fine without me, ellie isn't even my real name she's just some girl i basically made up to be on scratch avoiding her responsibilities to talk about taylor swift and gossip girl. eventually you'll all grow up, move on, forget about me, and forget about scratch as a whole. that's just how life goes, that's what growing up is, letting go of the past to focus on the future. i know i could make time for scratch but i honestly don't want to, coming on and replying to messages is like a chore now not something that makes me happy. I don't plan on doing check-in's either because i'll get too attached again and it'll be even harder to beat the addiction. once i log off i'm gone for good. that's the plan. i see messages and i just don't want to reply i just can't bring myself to be social sometimes and i don't want anyone to feel neglected or ignored because of that. you're all strangers on the internet, sweet, caring, considerate, helpful, amazing, strangers on the internet, but still people who'll eventually leave just like me. i cant be prioritizing strangers over my grades, my friends, my family, and my future. i knew i had to leave when scratch started feeling like a chore. i felt exhausted when i had any messages to reply to and i felt empty when there were none. its a constantly negative cycle with no benefits and i just cant let it continue until it consumes me. scratch is addictive, as are most online platforms and i cant allow it to consume me and chip away at my time and well-being. no one is at fault for my leaving except myself, i promise. i'm making the best choice for myself. it hurts me to do this, it's like the leaving school on the last day knowing you may never see some of these people again. it's hard but it has to be done. i cant stay attached to this website or any of you, i just can't. now i'll begin with my notes to friends: : grace omg where do i even start...you were the first person to ask me to be friends on scratch and that meant so much to me. i mean this amazing, sweet, popular girl with hundreds of followers wanted to talk to me? it was just incredible. we clicked so quickly because you're just so easy to talk to, so inclusive, friendly, and overall an incredible human. whenever i thought about leaving in the past i always worried about missing you, you kept coming to mind. i'll miss you so incredibly much you don't even know. ilysfm grace and i'll never forget you and how you made me feel. you're going to do so well in life. keep being amazing <33 : marlo you're so sweet and funny and your banners ?! you're so talented !! when we first met i looked at all your projects and was amazed by your talent, the aesthetic coding, the cute backgrounds, the beautiful pfps, and most of all your gorgeous banners. when you made me my first banner for christmas i was so happy no one had ever made a gift project with something for me in it and when you did it made me so happy. i know we haven't talked as much since you moved accounts and that makes me sad but i know neither of us are at fault. we still have each others p!n so contact me there anytime. ilysfm marlo you dont even know <33
@falsegoddess eva we dont talk much but you were one of my first friends on here. i Ioved talking to you about taylor and gossip girl because somehow you Ioved both my main interests too and that was amazing. i wish i had reached out more before i decided to leave because you are absolutely amazing you're smart, funny, and over all an amazing person. ilysmf eva i'll never forget you. long live all the memories we made <33 @_team-peeta_ craine i remember when we met on your old old account that i wont reveal for your privacy (that account was iconic though) you've gotten far too much undeserved hate which isn't preppy at all. you deserve better and im glad youve found a new community that makes you happy even if the aesthetic community isnt the same without you. you've been so supportive of me, my banners, my art, my interest, and just everything in my life and i can't thank you enough. you're such a sweetheart and i'll miss you forever ilysfm craine <33 @sea-doggii coral, coral, coral, we havent known each other that long but it feels like it's been forever. you're the type of friend who i can go forever without talking to and then talk again like nothing happened and that's how i know we're close. you're so sweet, from the moment i saw your account i knew i wanted to be friends and when you said you wanted to be friends too i was overjoyed ! thank you so much for your gorgeous banner in my friendship studio you're so talented and you'll go so far in life because of your amazing, warm personality. i'll never forget you and i hope you wont forget me either ilysfm coral <33 @gossip_girly13 augustine, we met less than a month ago but we just clicked and that was amazing. i love your gossip projects they're so fun to read because you spill the tea in the most entertaining way possible it's like i've seen it happen even though we've never actually met. you're so funny and i wish we could have talked more. ilysfm augustine <33 @dxylight- maddie i know you're gone and it saddens me to see your empty account but im writing you this anyways because it would be wrong not to. you are such a kind queen, you were so supportive in helping me reach my goal of 100 followers and you always made me feel happy and included. the fact that you would reach out to talk to me first made me feel like our friendship was real and genuine which is hard with online friendships but you're just that amazing if you ever see this i want you to know that ilysfm maddie <33 @-touqhlcve isla i know we were never close enough to be friends and we has a tense relationship on your old account but you're such an idol to me. i don't idolize just anyone but i admire your resilience. you've gone through so much in this comm and powered through it and continued to make gorgeous project and that's so admirable, you're amazing isla and i bet you're gonna do great things in life to end my project with some fitting taylor goodbye lyrics, here you all go: Who knows, if I never showed up, what could've been There goes the loudest woman this town has ever seen I had a marvelous time ruining everything I had a marvelous time ruining everything A marvelous time ruining everything A marvelous time I had a marvelous time
