We walked through the door of our new apartment We're laughing the whole time I hold your hands in mine, we share a smile A box in hand and you in the other You smell like lavender, like my mother And then, the lights turn green What have I done? Have I made a mistake? 'Cause I can't remember why I feel this way My life flashes by, as I drive away My home is not my home no more My home is now my grave The gifts you gave me, I'll keep them safe Though bittersweet in their aftertaste So many songs that'll never sound the same Stuffed animals that used to light up the room Felt like how I fell out of love with you Out of sight, but I see you everyday Oh, why the hell do I keep recalling The good, the great, I had all I wanted How on earth did I lose it in a day? I left my sweatshirt at her place I'm turning back to my old ways Can't keep commitments I'm the same as what I hated Ain't it funny how we change? What have I done? Have I made a mistake? 'Cause I can't remember why I feel this way My life flashes by as I drive away My home is not my home no more My home is now my grave Ooh, ooh I never knew All this love was new to me Ooh, ooh I never knew, oh, what it would do to me I never knew All this love was new to me I never knew, oh, what it would do to me What have I done? I've made a mistake 'Cause I can't remember, no, I can't remember Why I feel this way, life flashes by As I drive away My home is not my home no more My home is not my- I miss your laugh, I miss your face I took your half, and threw it all away I hate myself, I hate this pain I hate that I lost everything It's cold outside, this time of year But it's colder now that you're not here I've lost my rock and I've lost my friend I never want to see a goldfish again
