⇵ the way life goes ..

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ever since i joined scratch in june 2024, i knew i would have to make this project. i knew in summer 2025 i would have to write this. i have to be honest with you, i have tried sooo many times to leave before summer 2025, and as you know the first two attempts failed. i love this website, and by that i mean not necessarily the actual website, but the people. but i can't wait any longer with this post, i cant wait for summer 2025 to write this, because i've been here too long as is. this will be my final post and i really don't know how to explain it because this is just so so so sad for me. i know i've said "hey ! im leaving :)" before but idk i just feel like this one is the real one and i know that this will be the last thing i write on scratch. "why?" is probably something you are wondering and i promise you i'm getting there, but i want to say thank you first. thank you for all the times you stuck by me and defended me. thank you for supporting me no matter what, even when the decision was silly and dumb. thank you for starting conversations with me and making me feel like i belonged in this community. i have never felt more welcomed in my life than i have in this community, so thank you so much. the reason i have to leave is high school. i started scratch as a 13 year old, now i'm 14 obvi, and atp i have 1 ish month left of eighth grade. i want to spend my summer with my friends since not all of them will be moving on to the same high school as me. i don't want to spend my summer in front of my laptop like i did last summer, so even if i were to stay i would have a summer long break. but clearly i'm not staying. the high school that i'm going to has a whole different work ethic than my middle school, and that's just for normal classes. i'm taking ap human geography, advanced english and advanced biology so i know that my workload and homework is going to be a lot. i know that i will have no free time to make thumbnails, and projects, and descriptions. my days will be filled with school, weightlifting and basketball practice, so to put it simply i wont have time. on top of that, i have zero motivation to post. and i feel terrible because there's no point in having this if i'm not motivated to do anything. also, jwan, hanae, wren AND astra are now all banned. so many of my close scratch friends are getting banned so i dont see a point in staying. i've had leaving planned for so long, and i was supposed to leave may 20th, but now js feels like my time to leave. i feel like i'm complaining so much rn, so please know that i 100% am not. i wish i had spent my time on scratch to the fullest and didn't waste time on "leaving" and "taking breaks" that i knew wouldn't last. i wish i spent time with all of you. i am going to miss you all like hell. the first few days of leaving i know are the hardest and you will probably catch me online at least twice, but i know that i'm just going to have to block the website and stick with the heartache. my whole life for almost a year revolved around all of you. i love you all so so so much and i will always love you so so so much. but, i know that if you love someone then you let them go. which is why i'm leaving before i make it hurt for me more. my scratch journey has been one of the best experiences in my life and i'm glad it happened. don't listen to what sabrina carpenter says, don't cry because its over, smile because it happened ( see what i did there ) i don't want to go, but i know it's what's best and i don't want to disappear without saying anything. i will miss you all so much, but i will not forget you. of course i'll pop on to tease the summer beyond some more, and i'll be back for release day next year. i'll be back april 29th, april 30th, and may 1st for my silly little wedding and comp results on both of my accs, but for now this is goodbye. i wrote notes to some of you that are inside of the project, so make sure to check <3 i love you all and you will always be in my heart, no matter how much time and distance is between us. so for the last time, xoxo iris