I’m so sorry you’re feeling this way. I know words might not take away the pain, but please know you’re not alone in this, and you don’t have to go through it by yourself. You are not a burden, and none of this is your fault. I know it feels like everything is crashing down, like nothing will ever get better, but I promise you that you are loved, you matter, and there are people who truly care about you—including me. You don’t have to pretend to be okay when you’re not. It’s okay to feel how you feel, and it’s okay to reach out for help. You don’t deserve to carry this weight alone. Please, please talk to someone you trust, whether it’s a friend, a family member, or even a professional. You deserve support, comfort, and love. I know you blame yourself for Kai, but grief and loss aren’t things you could have controlled. It’s not your fault. It never was. And your friends won’t hate you for telling them how you feel—they’d rather know and be able to support you than lose you to silence. I care about you so much, and I don’t want you to go through this alone. You are stronger than you think, even if it doesn’t feel like it right now. If you need to talk, I’m here, always. Please, please don’t give up. There’s still hope, even when it’s hard to see.
