small hiatus.

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#info ik this is kinda out of the blue n whatever but theirs a lot going on rn.. especially w/ some weird friends.. idk.. i js feel rlly weird rn.. #1 mental health just to be clear im not seeking attention. Im just stating why i'll be temporarily leaving scratch and this is one of the reasons. -- I dont really get any joy from scratch anymore, and I cant even say I'm actually happy (besides scratch) . The situation I'm going through makes think about 100 different things I could've said that would've made things better, but i didn't. I let my anger get the best of me. Another thing which you may choose not to believe BUT i am paranoid.. like badly. I don't want to let anyone know irl so they don't think I'm a freak or wtv. I prefer not saying the things im paranoid about (yes theirs multiple) its very weird since i shouldve been over this now that im a teen. -- #2 School no im not going to say some shi like im getting bullied and i hate my life or wtv but my grades are good dont get me wrong, but i spend way to long on scratch over school which is NOT balancing at all. I prefer all A's, currenty I have 3 b's and 4 A's AND i have 13 late assignments. this is horrible, last semester i had 1 late and straight A's. When my mom checks my work she'll kill me (she doesnt know abt scratch) . I try avoiding her checking it but i know my time will come eventually. -- On top of that i still have assignments i havent coupled from weeks ago. I constantly reload msgs to see if someone msgs me bc if i dont i feel lonely. Then i scroll on youtube shorts. I wait last minute to do my work. This is horrible. I even skip EVERY single class. (even the ones i HAVE to go to) . luckily they havent emailed my mom YET.... -- #3 life Going through some pretty hard times w/ the loss of a family member.. ppl are showing their REAL colors.. and they aint too pleasant. I dont rlly wanna describe whats going on but this is kinda the main reason. -- friends My friends can do some rlly weird stuff and i have no clue why.. maybe cause im the only boy?? idrk but ive caught them talking about me sometimes and i even set them up and they acted like nothing WHEN I HEARD THEM??? but wtv. Ig i just keep choosing the wrong ones.. this hiatus will prob be for only like a week or two. I MIGHT close my chat but its not like ppl r rlly going to chat anyways yk? (no im not tryna sound like a pick me but why would ppl msg me if im inactive??) ily ; tofunmi, mina, lena, rey, chae, linh, fatim, ami, sage, meagan friends that i dont wanna say ily too bc it might be weird :sob: ; xander, hcles (idrk ur name) , mel , if i forgot u lmk im prob going to check it some times but im mainly going to be ia (temp) ilyasm and will miss u all