Hey there.. Um.. I really dont know where it start. But um, I guess I should start with this.. You sit here and tell me nobody wants you. But, I don't understand where your coming from that. I don't see where I became nobody. I mean.. In my eyes im somebody. And in my eyes im somebody important and, my opinion matters. But I am pretty stupid. But im defiantly not nobody. So when you tell me nobody wants you.. That hurts. Cause, I don't see how you can say that when there is someone fighting for you, every day, right in front of you, because they care about you. So, if you can't hear me when I tell you that you matter, Maybe now you will hear me. I am not no one so do not say nobody wants you because I want you and I fight for you everyday. I think about you everyday, I wonder how your doing, because I- I cant be there with you all the time. But that doesn't mean im nobody. Cause I care. And ya know, the person who says that nobody cares about them is usually the person with the most people caring about them! So.. Yeah. Thats the person i've been fighting for. The person who says nobody cares about them when somebody does. And ya know im cool with that. But there is a line that when you cross it.. Ya know.. That.. that really hurts. You told me.. Nobody wanted you. Ok we get that. But then you have the nerve to tell me that there is no such thing as happiness or love. Right there. I know that is a lie. You tell me that happiness and love is a lie and that it is just all fairytales and stories and its a lie like all of that! Right now your lying to me when you say that because I know happiness and I know love! You know it too. But your too blind to see it! Okay does it sound like im being harsh right now? Yeah. Thats called tough love. Love. Love! Get it through your head it is real! And it is right in front of you! Ya I know I smile everyday and if you really know me you might find that hypocritical but I smile everyday because I find something to be happy about! Every day. Even when its the worst day on Earth, somebody makes me smile even if it has no relation to me. You know why? I recognize happiness. I understand it. I cherish it. I believe in it. But somethings happened along the way and you no longer see it as a possibility. You say its a lie like fairytales. Fairytales are not lies. They're.. They're suppose to inspire you. Ya know? You look at this character and see them going through a situation that seems, almost totally impossible. Like no human could ever get through that. But you see them persevere! You see them go through this.. and you see them holding their heads high. Even when they fall they get back up! And then you see the end! Something, ya know there is good out of what they just went through. They're suppose to tell you.. that you should just keep going because there are good moments that happen. And no matter who you are your going to have a good moment in your life! So dont close the book before you've even gotten to the climax. Dont tell me there are no happy endings because your not God you cant read the end of your book. You cant read the last page. You cant. But if you do close that book, and if you stop writing it.. I will pick your book up in hand with mine. And I will write yours and mine at the same time! And I will think about closing mine, bout closing yours, bout closing em both because its hard to write two books at once. But guess what? Life is hard! Writing your book of life is gonna be difficult. And if I am sitting here willing to pick up your book of life, and write it even after your done with it.. Then by God! You had best- Better open your eyes. Only a blind person doesnt see what in front of them. And if you cant see that there is somebody so willing to do anything for you because they care about you and are happy and want to make you happy and they love you! I just..... Because- Cause, here's there thing. There are happy endings. I've seen them. There is love because Ive seen it, I've felt it, I've experienced it. And part of love, and part of happiness if pain. Because if you experience pain while you are happy then you know you are happy. When you're in love you know you're in love. You. Know. Dont tell me its a lie, dont try to bring me down with you because I am not bringing- I'm not bringing myself down and im not going to let you bring yourself down either! I will pick you up, and I will carry you so help me! Even after your dead! I will fight for you! I will fight for your memory because guess what? Everything you do is etched in time. You cant get rid of it, so, ending you're life, ending you're book, its not worth it. So dont say your not wanted when somebody wants you.. Cause thats what you'll get...
mhm. yeah. dont you just love Ice's rants? Joy. Like her being decapitated. That was fun. :''')
