vent ig? cuz I just got yelled hehe1\! AHHH

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so uh um I'm not attention seeking right? erm..heh..AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH... so um ig I will tell why I made this? heh...I hate everything chat...heh...erm.. so basiclaly I was calling my pookie right? ya know vibin and stuff..then my dearest mother calls me down..and starts freaking yelling..shouting? sre those the same thing? well..I dunno.. uh yeah..she was mad about my grades...I have like two As and the rest are Bs Cs and like maby one D? but I do have two Fs...well one of the teachers LIL BRO IS LOW-KEY CONFUSING!!!! LIKE HE TELLS US TO STAY ON TASK (which I try my best to do with my low ahh attention span) THEN FIVE SECONDS LATER HE IS YAPPING ABT FREAKIN SPORTS!! LIKE BRO THIS IS U.S HISTORY NOT LIKE TOP TEN BEST NBA PLAYS OR SMTH GRRRRAHHH!!! ahem....heh.. and the other..blue she lockes EVERYTHING!! and how am I finna focus if right behind me are fricken inflatable porkipne ahh hair, and frickin temu version of Ryan renalds???? LIKE SUM ONE TELL THOSE TWO TO SHUT UP!! sigh.. yea so I'm failing the ONE subject I'm SUPPOST to be good at so that's....fun...ig...AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH...yea so my moms shouting and she takes my phone and stuff and at this point I low-key just feel numb. like I'm so used to her yelling at me over some FRICKIN LETTERS that I don't even care anymore! I don't even care about school anymore cuz half the kids there suck, most of my teachers can not teach and BRO MY COUNSLER IS ANOYING AF!! I fr hate my school and the only thing that makes me actually wanna go, is seeing my friends, and having eight hours away from my probably emotionally @busing parents...bro they fr yell for the most dumb reasons..one time my mum took ALL of my money just becuz I FORGOT TO TURN OFF THE FAN IN MY ROOM AND TURN OFF A TINY LAMP LIKE HELLO??? JUST TAKE THE LAMP NOT MY LIFE SAVINGS???? ig I get it cuz I am raising the bills but they sorta knew that having more then two or three people in one home would raise bills..I mean if they didn't want more bills don't give birth to more kids to raise the bills? mb its just an adult thing?? but like the way they switch up?? like how is my dad finna wip out the belt for me not putting away my clothes (WITCH I FR DID MY MUM JUST PUT A RANDOM BASKET IN MY ROOM AND I DIDN'T SEE IT) cuz he thinks I'm lying and then be all lovey dovey and 1# dad a few hrs later???? hello that's not gonna make the stinging and marks on my rear go away?? sigh..I HATE MY LIFEE!! my dad says I'm spoiled and I prob am..I should be greatfull for all I have cuz ik there are people who don't have a roof over there heads or a family to care for them or any of the stuff I have..and I am greatfull..I just don't know how to show it..expressing emotions and understanding emotions has always been somewhat of a skill I lack..like I'm aware I lack basic sympathy...but I just don't know how or what to feel..there might be SMTH wrong with me but if that's too bad. cuz I will prob just keep having my emotions misunderstood cuz I can't properly express them half the time....so yea ig...I think I got off track from the main vent but whatever idc.. sometimes I just wish everyone would just shut up. my parents, kids at school, teachers, people who think they know me, people who assume I will just give them my entire being just because we used to be close..people who have moreally wrong views on the world, people who just don't get it. like I swear all they do is yapp and it drives me insane if I'm not already. and people are like "OmG cAlM dOwN" IT'S NOT MY FAULT I CAN'T CONTROLL MY ANGER, HOW ABOUT YOU TRY BEING CONSTANLY OVERSTIMULATED AND INSECURE. SHUT UP..............anyway um..sry for yapping so much..IG I sorta feel better now..I should prob go do my work so I don't get yelled at again...I see why my parents scold me so much..I'm insufferable..anyways imma go like pull a shoya. bye I hope you have a better day than I did..