~ My Goodbyes to Gaehive ~

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so before i start, i just want to make it VERY clear that this is NOT an attack on ANY of the gaehive's members or the studio itself. this has been a long time decision that i am choosing to make for the sake of our mental health and security. i just wanted to criticize the way the studio currently runs. for those of you who know me or any of the sys members: hi. long time no see, even. for those of you who don't, then it's ok. we have been on the gaehive for a WHILE during school days, i'm pretty sure we joined during some point in june-july of last year. however, nothing is perfect. we've had to deal with so much during the time we were in gaehive, and considering recent events, i think it's about time we pack our bags and say adios. i've actually been hinting at this for a LONG while with some of my comments. gaehive in general has been exhausting to deal with sometimes, with all of the rulebreakers and spam commenters. i'm not going to vaguepost about others for the sake of abiding by the studio's rules, as i'm trying to thread the line between generally being rude and trying to keep this safe for scratch. i am so sorry if this feels targeted, i do not intend for this in any way. with that out of the way, time for an actual rant. as soon as i realized how much life this studio sucked out of me, i knew i had to stop and quit. what was once a "safe space for all" is a toxic cesspool of ragebaiters and rulebreakers. i don't even think the studio is a "safe space for all" anymore, as if you even DARE to mention something that's a LITTLE bit controversial, you will be reported to no end and get mocked for it. the moniker the studio has been going by is continuously being falsified by everything that's going on. not only this, but it has genuinely been taxing on my mental health as well. i wouldn't call gaehive "opinionated" or "close-minded" at all, but it is treading on a line that makes it seem like they are sometimes. it's not often, but it happens enough that it feels... off. like it's not supposed to be there. i've met much more friendly spaces off-site, even. i was always looking to quit having a short temper, but gaehive didn't do that, rather it encouraged it. i would get mad at it for seemingly no reason when comments would be closed, and when i took a break, it felt so relaxing. like going from a tight alleyway filled with storms nearly every day into a summer field that you can frolic around in. the breaks have taught me so much more than what gaehive has, and it just feels a little embarrassing on their end. yes, i know the staff have tried their absolute hardest to keep toxicity to a minimum, but there's always that one opportunity people sneak in to strike our heart and take a bite out of it, chewing a fragment of my soul away each time. i've even remembered the times where this studio has given us a small dose of TRAUMA, comparing harmless things to ones that are very, VERY harmful. it's like that if you don't agree with the common opinion, you will be tracked down for it. i genuinely could not take it anymore, and that is EXACTLY why i am taking the utmost decision to quit gaehive and free myself from the chains of demoralization once and for all. ...if that rant sounded like a villain monologue, i am so sorry about that. i genuinely needed to get my thoughts out there and write things down for once. i feel so sorry for the managers who have to deal with this almost every few days. i know 100% that they aren't robots (i'm trying to avoid objectifying anyone,) and the things they have to deal with are really harsh. i would like to thank them for their performance, even though it could be better in some ways. one day, they may be a beacon of hope. i really, REALLY hope that the gaehive can follow its slogan of being "a safe space for all" more efficiently in the future. if that happens, we may even swing back into it. but for now, it feels like a weird mixture of bad flavors. every community will have bad-mouthed folk, and the gaehive is no exception, but this is especially prevalent. no, this is NOT a joke. we're leaving for good, ESPECIALLY with how often the mood gets brought down. the internet itself feels toxic sometimes too. i've been working on goals that could lead us to becoming better people in the near future, and this is one of the steps i am willing to take to accomplish our collective goals. the stress just feels unreal sometimes. this doesn't mean we won't TOTALLY quit. we may pop back in a few times, but for now, our journey is over. while gaehive overall has not been the greatest experience, it did have its good moments. i would like to thank some of the friends we've made through the gaehive: (you're the goat <2) as well as the managers of gaehive for trying to keep the experience as safe as possible. with that out of the way, it's off to new adventures. goodbye, everyone! o/