tw everything<33333 late night breakdown frfr please don't read this if you know me irl. I dont want to have awkward conversations I'm fine I don't want people in school and stuff worrying about me it never ends good trust EVERY SINGLE DAY I STRUGGLE TO GET OUT OF BED. BED ROTTING IS NOT A ////// JOKE. HOURS AND HOURS POURED INTO LAYING THERE THINKING ABOUT MY PURPOSE IN THIS H///HOLE WE ALL LIVE ON TOGEYJER. I HAVE NO SIGNIFIGANCE, IM JUST ONE PERSON OUT OF 7 TRILLION. "why are you so sad all the time" "why do you look like that" "why aren't you responding" "why are you acting so different" SHUT UP SHUT UP SHTU UP SHTU TUTPPREluhegsidk PLEASE!! IM NOT LAZY IM TIRED. SO SOS OS VERY TIRED. EVERY DAY I STRUGGLE TO GET UP, GO TO SCHOOL, GET TREATED LIKE ////, GET HOME, YELLED AT FOR NOT EATING, /// MYSELF, SLEEP, THEN OVR ANF OVER. ALL HAPPINESS I EXPERIENCE IS TEMPORARY, IT ALL GOES AWAY EVENTUALLY. IM SPIRALING INTO MADNESS. PLEASE I JUST GIVE UP. I GIVE UP! IMNOT DOING THIS. IM DONE! IM DONE IMD ONE <333 I LITERALLY DONT CARE WHAT HAPPENS TO ME ANYMORE,, I MISS MY CAT I MISS MY EX I MISS NOT HAVING THESE STUPID "FRIENDS" I MISS BEING HAPPY I JSUT--HELP. "WHO WAS THERE FOR YOU AT YOUR LOWEST??" THE TISSUES DUMB/// . . . ... . . THIS IS A CRY FOR HELP BUT THERES NO HELP I CAN POSSIBLY GET. PLEASE GOD IF YOUR EVEN REAL JUST MAKE IT STOP ITS ALL I WANT. I LITERALLY /// MYSELF IN SCHOOL NOW WITH HAIR TIES TO RELIEVE MYSELF. I JUST WANT TO FEEL LOVE LIKE EVERYBODY ELSE!! PLEASE OH PLEASE. THE NEED FOR A NICE, LONG, HEARTY HUG FROM SOMEONE I HOLD CLOSE TO ME, CANNOT BE FUFILLED. THERES NOBODY (IRL) ANYMORE. SURE I HAVE A FEW FRIENDS THAT I ACTUALLY LIKE,, BUT I DONT REALLY TRUST ANYBODY ANYMPRE. MUSIC IS MY BIGGEST COMFORT<3 I CANT REALLY TALK TO ANYBODY EITHER. ALSO WHY ARE THESE KIDS SO MEAN?? LIKE IM SICK OF SCHOOL EVERYBODY THERE JUST DEGRADES ME AND TREAT S ME LIKE AN OBJECT. THERS LIKE NO HOPE IN MY LIFE FOR ANYTHING.. MAYBE ONCE I GET A PHONE?? BUT IVE BEENN FEELING HOPELESS ABOUT THAT TOO. IM ALWAYS TRYING IM ALWAYS TRYING TO BE BETTER IT JUST DOESNT WORK !!!! I LITERALLY QUIT. IM DONE. I DIDNT EVEN GO OVER EVERYTHING IN THIS EITHER.. nnobodys reading that anyways,, I'm okay
