i never knew a short fictional story by sofi I never knew. He kept trying to talk to me, but I'd keep pushing him away. I never knew. From texting every day, to not even texting our usual "good mornings." The day I found out, I laid on my bed. My clothes were scattered through my room. I looked up at my ceiling. I noticed for the first time, the wood had a funny shape etched into it. For the first time, I started looking at things more closely. I never knew. I had been too oblivious and self-centered to even notice the silent battles he was fighting. I'm still laying on my bed. I felt a tear roll down my cheek. I didn't cry when I found out but all my thoughts and regrets suddenly pounded and pounded and pounded my heart. I felt like I was going to explode. All the things we said we'd do but I'd pretend I was too busy. All the sweet things he'd tell me but I'd pushed him aside. He moved away from home. I'd never seen my mom cry as much as she did that day. Except for the day we found out. I watched her tear herself apart. I never left my room. My mom is struggling to keep things running smoothly and i'm just sitting in my room thinking. Thinking about how I never knew. Maybe there were signs. Maybe he tried to tell me. Too late now. My heart is still racing as if I had just finished running a treacherous marathon. I tossed and turned every night. I wouldn't go to school. My mom never talked. Neither did I. I had family and friends trying to reach me. No. I kept pushing them away. They don't know what i'm feeling, why are they trying to help? They don't know what I went through. I didn't know what he went through. I didn't know. I never knew.
