in response to this, https://scratch.mit.edu/projects/1157369699 and also based off https://scratch.mit.edu/projects/1157177878 -- "Alone at the edge of a universe humming a tune For merely dreaming we were snow, mmh-mmh." I've been alone for so long. even as writing this during math, none of my friends, even as I consider them so close, close as family don't reach out to me. when I read this project by @Applestar, it ( https://scratch.mit.edu/projects/1157177878/ ) well, broke me. if you read the comments, you can see that I cried. haha. I've never been great at writing my vents or writing how I feel since I've kept it all in. crying alone. trying to sleep it off. well. i don't really know what to say. heh please don't be sad too! I'll be back. like always. I've left @Frostcoat for almost a year, then came back on @fr0sted-flakes. then switched to @-fr0sty-the-sn0wman- , and switched back and forth from this account and @theweavingribbon. but. when I saw north's message, something came back to me. the reason I left on @Frostcoat was because scratch wasn't as it used to be. not /lively/, per see. i like to call it, "the scratch curse." or, "the friend curse." because every. single. time. it takes them away. and then my "despair" kicks in (if you knew what it really was then it'd be different but I don't want to risk getting muted) and I feel empty. it might be depression don't know I've felt like this ever since :D and no, of course I'm not actually smiling right now. sure, I'm putting up a facade. i always have. like how bin and north unforutnely say in their own respective projects at the top, they put masks over their own feelings. like how north /tries/ to care for others when she doesn't. and how bin is struggling at school (hope you feel better!! /vpos) i just don't know who would? -- it seems like... I'm useless. not really? but it feels like it so much I wish something could take the emptiness away. weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
@LxttlePxppy @AppIestar / @SHlPWRECKED -- song is dreams sweet in sea major by miracle musical (may or may not be heard, refresh once in a while) -- "Children born of one emotion Our devotion's deepest ocean No division reasoned we'll be free." PERSONAL NOTES BELOW!! sorry if I sound clingy towards y'all T^T -- @Applestar / @SHlPWRECKED north. you have to be one of the few people i've met on scratch that i find cool /AND/ become friends with. just idk visit? its up to you ofc ^^ i just want to see you again sorry if i sound clingy or anything i just get overattached, dont I? anyway. love you /plat <333 -- @DJThorn heyyyyy! you're one of the few roleplayers I've dearly held close in my heart / head (sorry if I sound clingy, again) but its just chris and riri's interactions and milleni's and aion's interactions were the only thing keeping my going all those months ago. i think I even remember sneaking a device to my room just so I could roleplay with you. haha good times. just hope you'll be okay and love you DJ! <333 /plat -- @XOSilverXO hii!! wait I just realised that I've never called you anything by names T^T is it okay if I call you silver for this message? i hope that's okay uhm.. anyhow! (nervous laugh) I just wanted to say that you are one of the few CRK people I would want to be really close too I know we haven't talked to each other in a while, but I just hope you know that you're (one of) the best people I've known on scratch. love ya /plat <33333 --
